"Trying so hard to escape this love.
When you're the one I'm thinking of.
I realize I'm drowning in this endless sea.
Will you be there to save me?"


Gazing up at the heavens above
Falling away from this free love
I obtain no guaranty
That perpetually we will be
Occasionally I just want to run
When it feels like my world is coming undone
Needing to relinquish this place
Trapped by this enclose space

However when we are worlds apart
I can't escape this ache in my heart
The consistent endeavor to replace your face
One in which I could nevermore erase
Cause no matter when I fantasize
A life deprived without you romanticize
Impossible to subdue without you by my side
Each time I decide to make the divide

So I'm drowning in all these endless thoughts
Demanding and desiring to be sought
Contemplating with a glimpse of your display
Putting a halt to this chase and winning the race
You bestow me with a fiance!!!

Condemned to a house I want to forsake
One window, white room I want to replace
Naked walls closing in on me
When will I see the sun again

Rain continues to pour not wanting to go away
Snow drifted piles covered by a cloudy day
Cold breezes surround me that I cant shake
NO surrender from me it could take

Thou trapped by the gloom of the night
Wishing i could only see the light
When will I see the sun again

Oh blue skies I miss you
White clouds come and exchange the gray
Oh Sun I miss you
Melt this snow and dry the rain
When will I see the sun again

"To conquer a masterpiece it most come from the heart.
Only then will you be able to call it a true work of art."

Bleeding from the inside, struggles a lover's heart. Day by day, every piece gets torn apart. Been crossed before, hurt over time. Always hid all the pain burning inside. Buried it so deep as if one were covering up a crime. Hiding all her problems by pushing them aside.

Love a conquest, she strives to defeat. By building a wall as hard as concrete. That way others would not succeed and therefore have to retreat. Blocking the world out and not give in. She continues to fight a battle within. So scared that if only once she chooses to let her guard down. The possibility of another heartache, in her own pain she may drown.

She can not trust, therefore she will never be able to love. A pleasure she will never conceive of. She may be able to look her better half in the eyes. Then with words of Love speak to him with lies. Distressed in agony by her own torture and torment. Lives a lover who in a relationship can not be content. Now as she wonders how her heart can still break. She never realized that the wall she put up was a mistake and that Love has the power to also give and take.

How can love be so dark? Will be left in the end with a question-mark.

At night, I replay the sound of his voice inside my head.
So that when I fall a sleep, in my dreams I can be with him.
As I walk through the shadows of the night, I detect his face.
For the first time, I seem to be in the right place.
I reach for his large hands and he pulls me closer.
He lifts up my chin and I kiss his sweet delightful lips.
I glance into his seductive dark eyes.
An I know I am not alone.

My body starts to tremble.
As he runs his hands down the sides of my back.
My mind instructs me to relax.
But my heart won't stop beating so fast.
He notices the shaking.  Whispers in my ear.
Asks me, "is everything alright?
Explains to me that I have nothing to fear.

I take a deep breath.
His soft lips then stream down my neck.
Next, he removes my blouse.
Finding himself eager to kiss my perky breast.
My hand placed aside his face.
He lifts up his head and says,"Are you ready for this?"

I awoken from this dream.
Knowing things where not as the seemed.
I laid in bed, knowing those words were never said.
Cried that night because that touch wasn't real.
All fake and made up.
Just a fantasy.

"If my love for you could be translated into a story.
Then others could view its magnificent glory.
Thou at times words cannot express the way I feel.
Don't worry my love for it will always be real."

A broaden range of view has set forth myself to you.
Claiming to be a bold man might make assumptions true.
With your dark features, broad shoulders and vague stare.
I stood around glancing and daringly trying to glare.
For at that moment I was a tiger and you were my prey.
While inside I thought about how my chances might weigh.

My struggles of trying to trap you led myself to be captured.
The amusing sight of you, I was enraptured.
Your kind heart is compassionate, considerate you understand.
Makes our life more thrilling that nothing is never planned.

Throughout time I discovered that you would forever be mine.
Sent here down from the heavens as my very own sign.
My love for you grows and I'll love you for always and forever.
So don't ask when it might end, cause the answer is never.
Till the end of time I'll fallow you, us together we walk that line.
Willingly knowing that rather night or day our love with be fine.

"Took that walk to many times, for it is now been memorized. Time for a new direction and it's called, CHANGE."

A single match I strike, throwing it into the night. Falling to the ground, it lands on the oil I have thrown around. Set ablaze this fire, with out a word, I let it burn. As for change takes it turn.

Was once locked up and placed in chains. Seemed like every other day the forecast brought rain. Trap by a force using barrier walls, the devil calls. Throwing me into me very own jail cell, I had experienced hell.

My precious life stolen away. Each and every day I would await, yet nothing changed. Questioning life had been a key. Which later on revealed the answers that I seek.

Some how I still managed time to take another look back. Realizing all the things I once had. Suffering like this was the only thing left. Again I went searching through my past. Being condemned and punished where the consequences I had to face. Each time an old memory took place. Felt like a disgrace. My future at stake, and at some times I believed this to be my fate.

The liveliness of my soul had already died. For some believe I should of been burned alive. Left alone with only my cry's. Lead me to more helpless nights.

Until one day, a little hope, helped me rebel. Gave me the strength to break free from that jail cell. I unleashed them chains that put me to shame. That was the day I had escaped.

Dangerously, I play with fire and I start to admire. Noticing, it was my past that I have just lit with that match. Stood there honored and proud watching it burn to the ground. With out a single word, I didn't make a sound. Ashes to ashes leaving behind the dust. I really wasn't in a rush. Didn't take a second to hesitate, as I turned my back the other way. For right now, I'm walking away heading to a new change.

"Fill not your hearts with pain and sorrow, but remember me in every tomorrow. Remember the joy, the laughter, the smiles, I've only gone to rest a little while."

Endless glimpse towards the open casket,
fills the chapel with everlasting tears of racket.
Pastor starts the ceremony in prayer,
though it helps none of us who are all in despair.
For this death I still deny,
I have just realized this will be my forever last good-bye.

My heart filled with pain and sorrow,
I won't be able to bid you a good morrow.
As my mind reflects the moments we shared,
I'm aware that I sit unprepared.
I **** God to turn back the hands of time
and to make all things sublime.
Griping tighter to whatever piece of reality,
right before the break of my own mentality.

Though I know you have only gone to rest awhile,
through these tears I'll try and smile.
With no more hurt, you will no longer have to cry,
with that I farewell you a last good-bye.

I surrender to God for easing your pain,
for he had not let thee be forgotten in vain.
Bereft from love with nothing left.
Unsaid words formed ahead.
Thou shalt not say anything of what this death had or still may bring.
For when one chapter in life ends another one begins.
As to when one door closes another opens.

So since you've gone to rest awhile,
I'll dry these tears and try to smile.
I will farewell my friend one last good-bye,
understanding for when I die.........
...........that is when I will be with you again!!!



In Loving Memory Of,
Laura L. Lark
R.I.P