my mind is as empty as the glass thats half full
see im confused, but still optimistic about everything I been through
The scars bring me back to my past
A time where darkness followed me untill I collapsed
Lifes been hard, its a true struggle
But ive learned to never put anyone above you
Listening to my thoughts, one at a time
Collecting these memories as if they were really ever mine
Scattering these pages and burning them all
You may watch me slip, but youll never watch me fall

Ive always wondered what heaven was like
And how it looks when you cross to the other side
I cant wait till the day I enter, and I see you there so we can sing and ride
Loud and obnoxious just like the good old days
When we didnt worry about a thing
But until then I cherish our moments we had and all our memories
Holding your love tightly, and never letting it go
Never forgetting you and how you would lift me up when I was feeling low
My dearest cousin I love you till the end of time
The world seems so different now, the pain has not been kind
Untill I pass those golden gates, I try to live my life for you
Keeping my head held high, forever missing you

I smiled back when he asked if I was alright
Knowing inside I wasn't
I laughed when he insisted there was
Dark deep thoughts drifting through my mind
Release me
I smiled back when he asked if I was alright

Wishing for the sun,
staring at the moon.
Visions of the day,
leaving way too soon.
Walking through the mists,
darkness throughout.
Overwhelming distance,
but courage is found.
Running forward,
faster than before.
The light is reached,
sadness is no more.

I wanted to see you but then i remembered your no longer here
I wanted to hear you but then i remembered we no longer speak
I wanted to feel you but then i remembered everything you feared
I thought about us but then i remembered how we are too weak
I didnt want to remember anymore

Theres flowers in her hair and stars in her eyes
She wishes many things but always wonders why
Her dreams are so vivid they feel extremely real
when shes fast asleep she no longer feels
Her body is so numb, cold from all the pain
living in the moment while fighting all the shame

APN

The silence is louder than ever
Im wondering when things will get better
Lost in my head
Cant feel a thing
I must pick up to endeavor

The silence is louder than ever
The thoughts dont seem to bring pleasure
Holding on too tight
Grasping way to hard
Hoping none of this lasts forever