Perhaps the war in my mind will call got a cease fire
Maybe peace will come along,
And my brain will agree to make peace with my body
To cooperate
To eat
Never to cut again
To love every flaw
Oh perhaps there will be a cease fire

this
can't
be
all
there
is

Day after day the sun rises
Day after day the sun sets
At every sun rise,
you are my only thought
picturing you rolling over
and cradling my body
every time the sun whispers goodbye
and the moon slowly creeps up
you are on my mind
I picture you and I sitting outside
Amongst the fire flies
Whispering about life
you are every thought
and every dream
I have ever had
I love you endlessly

I could lay here forever
On this old lumpy mattress
Watching your smile
Listening to you talk
You are why I breathe

Because you are every
good,
clean,
pure,
and wonderful thing on this planet
You let off sunshine with your smile
And I am every piece of toxic waste that fills this universe and pollutes the air that is slowly choking you
I don't deserve you

Red
I remember the crimson glow that use to leak from my thighs
I miss it
Gray
My skin turned an awful shade of grey but it was wrapped around bones
Not fat
Pink
Little scars along my legs
They're screaming
Blue
All the pills I took to not feel so alone
I'm still lonely
Purple**
The rings around my eyes from when I couldn't sleep at all
They're still there

I crave attention.
My whole being begs for it.
My hands tremble
my knees quake
and my lips bleed.
Can anyone hear me?
Is anyone there?
I'll stomp my feet,
I'll kick,
I'll scream,
I demand to be heard.
Someone acknowledge me
I can no longer be an invisible girl
Help