A place where I find solace
Solace enriching my soul with peace
Break from my entangled thoughts
My room where I can't be caught

A safe haven
Station of my floating thoughts
A fiery hell
A stroking to my fire

Display of my emotion pink
Serenity of my mind green
Purity of my soul white
Testimony of my love tainted yellow

Space for my ugly mess
Stage for my mind’s chaos
Here I am more than a little less
A place where I find my place

Waking up with greyness
Losing my childish madness
I was once the jolly one
I was once the folly one
I was once pure and white
Fire of agony, ignite

Every day I find myself complaining
How did I get here?
When did I choose?
The person I have become
When did I let myself loose?
Losing my own right ways
Right in their own right
And choosing their self-righteous ways

Stuck in this conundrum
Often I wonder
They had their ways
But I had options too
Why did I let loose?
Why didn’t I choose?
Who is to blame here?
People who made decisions for me
Or me, who didn’t refuse?

This soul is mine
But skin of some other
Masquerade that I’ve put on
Replicated from another

I wanted to be you
Your skin so comfortable, full of originality
When you were not around me
I stole your personality

Ignorance was a bliss
As I enjoyed the few seconds of fame
But the conscience was screaming
Foreign beast, trying to tame

It was all an act
A pretension
"Admire me
I crave your attention"

But soon I realized
Foreign skin too, has flaws
But it’s all too late now
I can’t seem to let it go

I tried to change myself for the world
Trying to impress one another
Replicating the Replicated
I feel lost forever

I want to be free of this sin
Can’t reside anymore in this foreign skin
Because I am trying to live a lie
A lie that’s not even mine

It’s all a deceit
That you see
I really don’t know myself
I desire to know what it’s like to be me!

Time kept ticking and I waited for time
One step closer to the end of line
Watching life as the time went by
I kept dreaming and I was fine

I waited to reach the borderline
Now I am here and I just don’t shine
Going to take one day at a time
I’ll keep dreaming and I’ll be fine

I went downhill
But now I’ll climb
My dreams are worth a dime
I’ll keep dreaming and I’ll be fine

Only when I am done
I am going to die
Our dreams are worth this lifetime
We’ll keep dreaming and we’ll be fine

They deserved the best
For they accepted the worst
But luck came into play
And snatched it all away

"Life is not fair"
Is now what they say
To which life smiled and said
"I have a surprise at the end!"

Once I had the chance
To free my chained wings
To attain my carte-blanche
To sour high and sing

Every moment I sink
As I failed to think
My doom was confirmed
When their norms, I conformed

The path they showed
A million times, it was treaded
Still chose that road
Once that I dreaded

But chained to their brain
I went insane
My life was detained
I regretted this societal bargain

But it has been enough
Can’t let them dictate
Now I’ll steer this ship of life
And carve my own fate