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 Mar 2014 Alpha Wolf
Manny
I'm afraid to fall asleep
Because if I sleep
I'll dream
And if I dream
I'll dream only of you
Not of the way
That your smile is beautiful
Or the way that your laughter is contagious
No -
Instead, I'll dream
Corruptions
Tragedies
Fatal accidents
Yes -
The way you'll jump for your escape
By leaping from your chains
Or the way you'll jump for your life
By leaping to your death

Off a heightened building;

Or the way in which
Unknowingly
You'll drag me down along with you

*Because I can't live without you.
And I hate the fact that I hurt you and that you'll never forgive me, and that's why I'm tearing myself apart...

Written 10/3/14.  21:27
© Maniba Kiani
 Feb 2014 Alpha Wolf
nactuyah
pulling on a pigtail
chewing on a hangnail
tucking in a shirt tail
your hearts on the line

turn to a stranger
look him in the eye
you feel a little awkward
you feel a little shy
your hearts on the line

ducking in the restroom
fiddle with your hair doo
looking in the mirror
though it never looks right
******* in your tummy
checking on your ****
well you know what
your hearts on the line
well you know what
your hearts on the line
 Feb 2014 Alpha Wolf
nactuyah
silent but not forgotten
the lamb sits on a hill and waits
her heart ripped out of her chest
more than once
she waits for the right person
her heart chained like a locket without a key

lion waits in his cave
as his meal sits on a hill
he was hungry but couldn't
think about eating the little lamb
one look in her eyes made him melt
the sun glared at her fur making it hard to see her beauty
she sat her back to him
"why so sad little one?" he asked as gently
as the wind to their backs
"I do not wish to speak my problems to a lion."
her words like knives in the lions ears
she went to leave but the lions glare
those eyes of pray were on her
and she was scared he would give chase
but none the less she walked away

only to find the lion close behind
no alert in his ears or eyes
no hunger in his eyes
his long tail drug along the grass
his head hung low
and all in all he would follow her
around the world just like that
and he did
he followed her to another side of the hill
and sat right beside her
watching the sun set's colors blend the sky
as if it was meant to be a rainbow
 Feb 2014 Alpha Wolf
nactuyah
I hear the sound of howling in the distance
the alpha has healed from his wounds
they so deep I couldn't understand
why he was so close
his fur blacker than the night above
his growl deeper than any ocean

yet I couldn't bring myself to grab my knife
my whole body screaming "don't move"
a part of the alpha's ear was missing
probably from fighting for his herd
lighting flashed in his eyes
and I knew something was different

no one every tried to contain this alpha
as I was trying to do
his eye glare in every direction
wondering if which way I would go
but I didn't move I stood my ground
we glared at each other

my wings aching at my back
telling me to fly
but i wouldn't not yet
we didn't move not for several seconds
something changed in his eyes
his anger gone and light filled their pupils
my wings gave final warning
before I took off into the ebony sky
as I flew I could still feel his gaze
following me every which way I flew
but the gaze wasn't strong
like a hunter looking for prey
it was gentle
like a lover looking for a mate
the alpha was content
and I was the reason why
 Feb 2014 Alpha Wolf
nactuyah
home
 Feb 2014 Alpha Wolf
nactuyah
I lay in his arms and wonder
is this the right place to be
my head on his shoulder
and still I couldn't think
would it be right to move?
would I be ok?

sitting against his relaxed musles
i want to know what makes him
his body built
his mind quiet
but his eyes give everything away
he is here with me
and i want it as that

yet i want to know
will he always be there
when i need him?
when i cry
when im scared
when im hurt
or when im in laughter?

yet my heart yerns him in
and my mind goes quiet when im near him
and then i realize
this is were i belong
in the arms of my lover
this is were i would call home

i am home
i am safe
no more worry
no more heartache

i am home
i am with my love
and i will never leave my home
for my dear husband
 Feb 2014 Alpha Wolf
nactuyah
silent i sit at my computer
you sleep beside me
i try to be quiet
as to not wake you

but your eyes shoot open
and i wait for your cry
silently i walk to your side
"shh my little one." i say to thee
"mama is here." and you look at me

your beautiful brown eyes stare into my soul
you young at 4 say "you not my mama"
my eyes fill with tears as i sink into my own emptiness
hoping for a magical explanation
but nothing comes

I longed for your love since you were 2
and now i know why it was never there
you see my mom as your mother too
and now i am only know as your sister to thee

and i want to tell you
i want you to know

but then i wake up
in sweat and heat
tear stream down my face
as to tell me it was a dream
more like a nightmare
that most likely will come true

but in my heart and soul
you are still by baby to me
for my first born

— The End —