Drowning in your lies.
I made believe you were mine.
Clouding my judgment.
You were everything to me.
But I am forced to let go.

It's all I know I feel

Confusion lives in me

Eating away at everything
I have ever believed.

You are all
I think about.

I wish I could have you.

But I know you don't want me.

I want to push you away
Yet we both know I can't.

Anger spills from me
How dare you
Strip me of friendship

I told you everything
But my words
Fell upon deaf ears

You are the only thing
that I think about
Decapitating freedom

I wasted love for you
Now I'm wasting time
Thinking about you.

Tonight, I gargle with sleep.
I have dreams.
You haunt me.

I remember how you
honestly held me.
How you whispered
sweet nothing's in my ear.

Tonight, I gargle with sleep.
I have dreams.
Where happiness is short lived.

Hurting once again
Disappointment has a name
No one ever wins.

"I love you"
"I miss you"
They are words that
are spoken to me.
I smile.

Everything they say is incoherent.
Such aliens I am related to.
We laugh over dim-witted memories.
We say loving things.
But I am uncertain.

They hug me.
They kiss my cheek.
They do all these things.
As sweet as it may sound...
It's really not

They rend everything.