Lost in a time so cruel and vile,
I've tasted the sting of your razor blade smile.
Crawling across my skin like a snake,
I need the pain to keep me awake...

Because I know, if I dream tonight,
All my thoughts, they will ignite.
I don't know if I'll be alright,
but I still have the will to fight.

Look me in the eyes,
say that you won't let me go,
we are forever.

I feel my body losing control.
I'm losing sight of who I am.
I know what I'm becoming.
I've been here before.

I need to get away from the feeling;
the intense despair of being,
so, completely and utterly
alone.

I'm not alone anymore.
Why do I feel like this?
The waves of intense agony,
flowing through my system,
through the hole you left in my heart.

But the hole is slowly filling,
no matter how many times I lapse.
Because I know someone is there,
When I feel like I'll collapse.

Just recounting the tales,
of my hardships,
my loss, my love.
Has opened the hole again;
for new pain to flush out my system,
of the happy memories I'm trying to make.

I'm trying.
So hard.
To let you go.

I don't know who you are anymore.
That's why it hurts so much,
I thought you were my friend.

But instead,
you pulled me into the deep end,
and let me go.
Knowing I was unable to swim.

I kicked until I had no energy.
I screamed until my lungs were numb.
And still you just watched in cruel delight,
waiting for me to sink to the bottom.

But you don't know me anymore.

Pulled from the deep,
the day that I found you.
Pulled from the deep,
the day that our love grew.
Pulled from the deep,
but my past will not undo.

But I know I can escape the pain.
With your arms there to shield me,
I won't hurt again.

(This was just kind of something new I was trying...just kinda writing down the things going on in my head without really planning it out. Feedback? Opinions?)

I’m hated by the world because I won’t sell my soul.
I’m frowned on by society cuz I’m not very old.
My teachers all look down on me, but I do what I’m told.
Because I am a metalhead, I’m always treated cold.

So what if I’m opinionated?
I’m sure that you are too.
There’s things we won’t agree on,
that much I know is true.
But why are you so ******* me?
Cuz I’m not the same as you?
That’s why I have true happiness,
I am not fazed by you.

(Might add to this later.)

Deep in your heart,
lies a great work of art,
between the twisted images,
do not be torn apart.
Forever in the light,
shadows draw no fear,
enemies cross no line,
they cannot draw near;
So listen to my words,
all that’s left to hear:
the petals fly away,
yet the stem remains.
So feel no pain,
go find all the pieces,
all that remains,
the hurt releases.

He was the cloud who held me aloft,
floating through the sky,
carefree, loving, and gentle.
He stopped time;
the good times lasted;
while the clouds were white.
But clouds change.
Now, he is a black,
menacing thunder cloud,
who pierced the sky
with a deafening roar and
a blinding flash of golden light.
It struck me from my timeless perch!
He remains a deadly thunder cloud;
but clouds change.

To think that I have failed you once again.
It pains me to the core to see you down.
And I’m the reason why you are in pain...
I wish I could destroy what makes you frown.
We’ve held out through the problems these years past.
But once I thought our love had gone to waste.
Though now we’ve come to see our love held fast,
My love for you could never be replaced.
I know that we will always have some times...
When our problems will be too much to bear,
But even if I can’t see through the grime,
I know that you’ll always be there to care.
So even when our lives have passed us by,
I know I’ve always loved you ‘til I died.

Mín trega rapul við vegur av vatnast,
og blóðig gráta niðast báði og mín føvningur.
Mín glæstri oygdur svíkja mín ektaður grunur,
for Í føla so dimmi, álvuligur.
Innan Í skjóla.
Og innan har, Í fella burt, sum um Í hava tær doyggja,
og fella, um enn sum a dreygur fella.

Tú bjarga meg frá sjálvur.
Innan mín dimmi dagur, tú kom for meg.
Mín lethe. Mín ást. Mín vindrongur.
Takkar.

~Translation~

My pain falls by way of tears of water from my eyes,
and ****** tears down both of my arms.
My shining eyes betray my true thoughts,
for I feel so dark, not very happy.
Inside I hide.
And in there, I swooned away, as if I had been dying,
and fell away, even as a dead body falls.

You save me from myself.
In my darkest days, you came for me.
My lethe. My love. My friend.
Thank you.


(Inspired by Turid Torkilsdottir by Tyr and also one small part taken from "Dante's Inferno" The Epic Poem.)

Í tykja til hava hvørva mín harvið.
Samalt, Í hygga mín spegling.
Her speiliga!
Dára mín doyggja mannasál,
mín mannasál um stendur á egg av sorl.
Skulu tú bjarga meg?

~Translation~

I seem to have lost my way.
Alone, I see my reflection.
It mocks me!
Captivating my dying soul,
my soul that stands on edge of breaking.
Will you save me?

A shooting star,
falls from the skies,
through the mist,
clear to the eyes,
make a wish,
as it plummets to the ground,
smoke,
surrounding it,
floats all around,
hear the sound,
of it hitting the barren earth,
make a wish,
for all that it's worth.

Sitting in this empty room.
As I watch the shadows creep to the door.
Sitting on my bed I see,
The bits of dust as they fall to the floor.
Its so unreal how time flies by;
When the sun shines in,
All the shadows die.
And by that time, I'm sitting inside.
Waiting for the moon; My time to abide.

But from the light there's always dark.
And from the truth, theres always a lie.
Beyond the shadows there lies a mark,
Hidden by dust from days gone by.
So now you see; Moonlight so dark,
The shadows that creep,
The dust shall part.
An illuminator that fails to reap.
The Dust, The Sand, The Shadows; they sleep.

In the middle of the night,
The sandman comes 'round.
Perfecting infection,
Yet making no sound.
Spraying your eyes,
With his hellish dust,
Rebirthing your nightmares,
Perfecting your lust.

The daylight creeps in,
As I slowly wake.
The nightmares I had,
Were too much to take.
The Sandman had come,
And the Sandman had gone,
And all he had left,
Was the Dust at Dawn.

Today I was killed,
Murdered by the wind,
no longer breathing,
torn from my skin.
As I stood in the field,
Grasping for the clouds,
The wind tore through me,
as I screamed aloud.
No longer hated,
No longer loved,
killed from the winds,
sent from above.
For as I stood there,
I saw your face,
you mocked me, taunted me,
I was bound in place
Death is near,
But I feel no pain,
no longer torn from my love again.
So leave me be,
as I bleed it all out,
just let me lie here,
to create my drought.
Your love is like a killwind,
tearing at my skin,
its so abusing,
and spiteful within.
So I reached for the heavens,
And you let me down,
so now its your turn,
To be lead on and frown.
But today I was saved,
my arms stretched open,
you helped me through it all,
and you never stopped hopin'
You took away my sorrow,
and gave me hope,
to forget all my past,
and help me cope.
I'm not alone,
I was saved today,
he cradled my body,
and carried me away.
Swift through the rain,
and as the bitter wind blew,
you whispered in my ear,
For always; me and you.

I'll always wear a smile,
When you choose to push me down,
I'll always wear a smile,
When you go to let me drown,
I'll always wear a smile,
When I cant stand on my feet,
And I'll always wear a smile,
When I truly face defeat.

Because some people say,
That when you lose it all,
Theres nothing left to live for,
And that drives me up the wall.
Cuz I don't believe its true,
Because I've really had my share,
So what you have to realise,
Is your friends are always there.

Cuz I've been down,
And I've been low,
But I dont think you really know,
Cuz when I ask you what you think,
All you do is ******* blink.

The fights, the lies,
The wins, the ties,
The deaths, The survivals,
The killers, the rivals.
Wheither its fighting off cancer,
Or just a skinned knee,
There's always an answer,
You just need to see.

My band made it far,
Further than the rest,
We won it all,
And passed the test.
But trials soon followed,
When they went to italy,
One of us was killed that day,
That one of us was part of me.

It started on my birthday,
What a great surprise,
I prayed for him that night,
I hope he never dies.
But it looks like I was wrong,
Because when all the months had passed,
My birthday came around again,
And that evil spell was cast.
I wish he had've woken up,
A coma wasnt the way to go,
It would've been less painful,
Had I chose to just let him know.
That night I'll never forget,
That brutal way he died,
He had finally awakened,
When the glass cut through his eyes.
As he tore through the windshield,
And bled out upon the ground,
The car kept going,
Leaving nothing but a sound.

I lost a dear friend that day,
I loved him with my life,
My heart was torn apart you see,
I couldnt stand the fight.
Then eventually it hit me,
And the name just made me cry,
But reflecting back upon this,
I wish I had known why.
So for one year I struggled,
And one year I fought,
For one year I kept my hope,
My heart was so distraught.
But the more I thought,
And the more I listened,
The dreams I had,
Would only glisten.
It was then I realised,
What was going on.
And he was in a better place,
His sufferring was gone.

So when you think you've lost it all,
Just give me a second thought.
When your loved one breaks your heart,
Dont let it all become distraught.
Cuz the more you worry,
The more you doubt,
And the more you lose
To what this life's about.
Cuz I've had it to.
MY heart's still broken.
But the way to live a life,
Is to never stop hopin'.

It’s been one hundred days,
since I have been without you.
But it’s not so hard now,
‘cause my heart; it seems to doubt you.
You once had good intentions,
that, I say is true.
But sometimes I look back and think,
I’m better off without you.

You’ve beat me to the ground,
but still I stay around,
‘cause I’ve got a few words to say;
they’re gonna wipe your smirk away...

You thought you had me down and out,
so tell me, what was that about?
I knew you tried to hurt me bad,
but in the end, it’s you that’s sad!

Yet still, you seem to match my pace,
my mind, it seems to run a race.
I can’t keep holding on forever.

This heart is on its own endeavour.

It makes me think that up is down;
that lies are lurking all around,
I’m helpless here, my hands are bound,
and that’s just only what I found.

It’s got me so confused you see,
the hurt affects my memory,
but in them I still clearly see,
that what you did was wrong to me.

But I’ll get over this someday,
and she’ll learn you’re just out to play,
so when life falls apart, I’ll say:
Your life deserves to be this way.

In my life I’ve made some choices,
I’ve shut out the harmful voices;
of people who will tear me down,
and people who won’t be around.

I’ve shut my eyes to not go blind,
I see their hearts within my mind;
For eyes cannot begin to see,
what people have in store for me.

I’ve tried so hard to understand,
why things don’t go the way I’ve planned,
and now I have begun to see,
with heart and soul, it’s clear to me.

Sometimes I find I’m trapped inside,
a world that I’ve begun to hate.
the screaming masses are too much,
for me, alone, to have to take...

There was someone who I held dear,
he made my future bright and clear,
But somewhere we got lost in time
and he had left me far behind.

Ever since that cold December,
It’s been too hard to remember,
how long I’ve frozen in this place;
this pain is too much to erase!

I loathe the day, my heart does too;
cuz I just can’t stop missing you.
The day shines light on all my pain,
and I just can’t survive this way!

It’s even harder, just because,
this isn’t what I thought it was.
I thought you’d come around by now...
I guess I ruined your life somehow.

But that’s not really fair to think!
I know that there’s a missing link...
you left me in the dark so long,
that I don’t even know what’s wrong!

My body’s so messed up right now,
I need to get away somehow,
I can’t keep going on like this!
I’ve fallen down to the abyss.

I can’t believe that what I see,
really used to belong to me!
Your heart is now a stone cold rock,
to me, it came as such a shock...

I never saw this coming, but,
your heart had never fully shut.
So I thought I’d be fine for now,
that we could get along somehow.

But now it looks like I’m dead wrong,
and now I see you’re really gone.
Well, maybe I will heal someday.
But now that seems so far away.

I feel the weight on my mind;
the crack in my heart,
the sickening feeling...
as it all falls apart.
Before our eyes,
we’ll sever the ties;
have I told you I’m sorry?
About all the lies...

And I get so dizzy,
as days roll on,
I don’t think I can take,
just one more dawn.
And I get light headed,
it’s easy to see,
when I think of what we used to be.

If I could go back,
just one more time,
and re-live my life;
with your hand in mine,
I think I’d be perfect.
I wouldn’t be scared.
But those are just pictures,
of the life we once shared.
So.

If only the sun would take me!
if only the wind was on my side!
I’d have the wind take me away,
and the sun would stop the burning inside.

Because I feel like I’m on fire,
with rage and pain and sadness...
It’s only you that I’ve admired;
and it’s driving me to madness.

But I don’t regret who we used to be,
and here, I’m so, alone.
It’s just the pain’s too much for me,
and I hope you’ll never know.

‘Cause I’d give up the world for you,
I’d take away the hurt.
But now you’ve walked away from me,
you’ve left me in the dirt.

But even so,
I hope you know,
I’ll always be right here.
I’m waiting for,
Our love to soar,
So take away our fear.

I’m standing in a blizzard...
that’s what it feels like.
the cold, it bites right back at me.
it stabs me like a spike!
Right through my heart it goes!
it chills me to my toes,
to think you’d be so cruel...
you played me like a fool.
And now I’m feeling nothing,
but that sort of makes me glad.
I know if I could feel the pain,
it’d take what’s left I have.
It’d take away my friends from me,
it’d steal my sanity.
I can’t believe how far I fell,
when you said you fell for me.
My limbs they all seem frozen,
they crack like withered trees.
In winter trees are heartless;
like what you did to me.
I know you see my pain here,
you relish in it all.
I know I hurt you so **** bad
and you’re here to watch me fall.
But even though I surely know,
you’ve got me down and out.
I’ll come back one day you’ll see!
Just what I’m all about.
But just for now I don’t know how,
to get out of this mess.
But I’ll be fine you’ll see in time,
Let’s start this game of chess.

The sun breaks through a dark gray cloud,
I’m standing in the rays.
And while it’s there I realize,
I haven’t seen the sun in days...
I wonder just how long it’s been,
since I’ve been in this maze.
The happy times have passed me by,
I’m stuck within this haze.

Each time I try to find the lie,
it all comes back to me.
Through every single happy time,
and every memory...
And even though I try so hard,
I really can’t believe,
who are you, what have you done?
It’s not like you to leave!

So here I am I’m back again,
Still walking through this maze.
With every single step I take
I’m still caught in the haze...
...and I fear it’s getting darker,
the sun is blinking out!
Someone has to find me here,
I know they’ll get me out.

I know that it’s too much to wish,
to just go back in time.
If I had known I’d lose myself,
I’d never call you mine.
It seemed so good, you stayed around,
but now I think you’ll find...
we were two kids just having fun,
and we know kids are blind.

So here I say I’ll know one day,
what it means to love.
I held you on a pedestal,
you were so high above.
But who could ever really know,
what it means to love?
I guess when I escape this maze,
I’ll know what they speak of.