One year today.
It's been one year,
since you decided,
to leave 4 years behind us.
There's still a place for you,
here in my heart.
Because I miss you.
And I don't understand,
why you left.
Our cultures are different,
I know that.
But did you really have to take it this far?
Because one year later,
my heart still aches,
every single time,
that I hear a witty remark.
In my mind I think
"Sanish would say that."
Because you would.
Your witty remarks,
kept me on edge,
and kept me happy.
Always wondering,
what would happen next.
What will happen next?
Will you continue your life without me?
Because that, I cannot bare.
There's not a day that goes by,
that I don't think about you.
Remember, when we used to look at the stars?
You would ask me,
if I thought that we're looking at the same ones.
And I think we were.
But somewhere,
I think you lost them.
I still laugh at our stupid jokes,
I still cry thinking about our stupid fights.
I still remember the promises we made,
I still remember you saying that it's alright.
I still don't even understand,
why you insulted me the way you did.
Crushing our dreams was so easy for you,
I can't even believe it, who knew?
You were like a brother to me,
best friends until the end.
I think that's why it hurts so much,
I thought that we were friends.
The nights continue on so slow,
as I search the nighttime sky.
It gives me time to think about,
why I even try.
One of my best friends who lives in England has always been bad for giving into peer pressure, and I guess despite how extremely close we were, "people can't be friends through text alone." His friends bugged him about having friends in Canada, so I guess he just threw us away. I should be mad at him, I know that, but even one year later, I can't bring myself to be mad and I can't bring myself to forget.