early morning breezing
early morning cruising
what happened last night?
I couldn't tell you.
every night is a blur
drowning my liver with wine and gin
inhaling nicotine after nicotine
cant remember if I got my fix
this is how I love to live.
partys every night
meeting people and not remembering their name
love and party fame for losing control  
its all a game

What is going on with my mind
the images of us rewind
our fingers that used to intertwine
that slowly changed into blood dripping crimes

Love is what I had thought once
But, after thinking twice
I've understood this was lust
And that to trust
Would only bring rush

The palm trees
That once engraved our love
has now swoon
due to a simple push
Love is something to not judge
But, to respect until the earths shake

I was a fool
and in time I learned
If, you life is complicated to understand
and the difference
between wrong and right is hard to define
how can you ever determine
the difference between love and lust

Nine long months till I get to see my precious girl
I know she's going to have green eyes and dark hair with one little curl

I waited and watched and looked at the clock
I said please God, please don't let these contractions stop

I promise to be the best mommy that I can be
I always Keep my promises... You just wait and see

We're going to snuggle every night
and make so many unforgettable memories
I'm going to teach you morals & values and life's responsibilities

I'll teach you to have fun
and always act like each day is our last one
-To treat everyone with kindness and enjoy life's finest.

It's 505 pm 10/28/02 and you have arrived
Just as beautiful as I expected
and the delivery I did survive (Phew)!

You look as I imagined
with your big almond shaped eyes
staring and me, staring at you, mesmerized

Now it's 10 years later and it's your very special day...
All I can do is keep thanking God, because I don't know what else to say

I knew you would be everything I had ever dreamed for
Beautiful, Kind, caring, and giving... I couldn't have asked for anything more

Thank you for being my little soul mate & such a good girl
Dream big, and remember to share your passions with the world

Slow
motion -           one side
                          then
                             ­                                  -another
pull the blanket
        over
                     my
                                   head
-look-
                     we're in a tent
                     our tent.
No one else can come in.
Your fingers go all the way
          down
                            my
           ­                             spine
                            ­             then
                            back
                   up.

These frayed jeans know you very well.

As every tear became a hole
and every hole exposed my knees,
you ripped them apart some more
they now looked like your jeans.

These frayed jeans know you very well.

They hung on a hook, in a box for a home,
with blankets for a bed,
where love was made
like it's never been invented.

I dream of you
Mostly when I'm sad
Or alone
For a moment I forget
You're gone
I get caught up
In the moment of
Disbelief
Maybe that's why
I intentionally put
Myself in situations
I can't win
That way
When the sadness
Ensues
I just
Close my eyes and
Dream of you

Your high heels glitter
But they don’t shine
With your jet black hair
And lips so sublime.

You look so perfect
But I see through the façade
With your steely eyes
And fists clenched so hard.

I know your intent
I can read your thoughts
Like a fly to a spider
In your web he’s caught.

So Miss Seductress
You have reached your goal
It’s just another client
Chipping away at your soul.