Don't pretend that you love me because I know it's a lie,
I can tell by the way you keep shifting your eyes.
I could tell by the urgency I felt in your lips,
That you wanted more than I wanted to give.
There was no love when your hands crept up my shirt,
Just lust and the frustration that you couldn't do that with her.
And though I blame you for everything that went wrong,
I realize now that it's not all your fault.
You used me for my body but I used you to feel loved.
And after I got attached I realized that it always went back to her,
I'd have you for the hour, but she'd have you always and forever.
And when I saw you together for the very first time,
I realized I imagined that love in my mind.
It killed me to know you got what you wanted,
And I was tossed aside, so easily forgotten.
I think that I loved you for all the wrong reasons.

I pick up the phone and put it back down, convince myself that there's no use.
It'll only bring back memories I've been trying my best to forget.
But they live in my walls and the harder I run, the faster that I start to fall.
Then they surround me and scream in my face.
What once was my haven, is now a terrible place.
And then I'm drowning, getting pulled under by what we were and what we could be.
And you're laughing, calling me naive and spitting out questions like did I honestly think I was good enough?
And I'm crying, breathing in water, trying to fight it but the feeling is stronger.
Then I realize that I'll never win.
When I start to let go, you pull me back in.
And I'll never be skinny or pretty enough, I'm sick of disappointment it's time to give up.
But the hold that you've got on me is stronger than my common sense..
So I'll live in the shadows of the girl that you love, and always remain second best.

I'm not in denial and I'm no longer sad,
I'm just ****** at myself for being so ******* naive.
I'm ****** that I let you get the best of me, when I never got **** from you.
So I'm still ******* bitter, but do you blame me?
For five ******* years I let you string me along.
And for what? A moment that I feel guilty for everyday?
Guess I wasn't enough to make you stay.
You were my best friend, and it kills me when I see you with her.
Not because I like you, but because I feel bad that she still doesn't know.
Do you not understand how bad you hurt me?
Because although I don't think about you everyday,
I still think about you.
But I held my pride, and what did you hold? My heart?
Frankly, you're not worth it. You never were.

I was only nine when you took my innocence,
and now that I’m older I’ve been trying to make sense.
I could have loved him, I think if it wasn’t for you,
but with each kiss I felt yours, and I couldn’t go through.
I never let him in because what if he didn’t understand,
the way that it felt to be used by a man?
I know that by now your body has rotted,
but the things that you did won’t be easily forgotten.
Each time is a struggle when I find someone new,  
and they try to touch me like young lovers do.
I get sick to my stomach and feel uneasy,
and it leaves me feeling ***** and guilty.
I find myself wondering if I'll end up alone,
or if someone would love me despite what they'd know.
If I could give them everything without pulling away,
and if it took time, how long they would wait.

Two months ago seems so far away,
and I think of you less day after day.
I've begun to forget how your lips felt on mine.
With your hand in my hair and mine on your thigh.
I still regret how I thought it was fine,
to kiss a boy that would never be mine.
I still wince in pain when I see you with her,
and I think of the boy I thought you once were.
I long to reach out and tell her the truth
and tell her I'm sorry, but I realize there's no use
bringing up mistakes I can never undo.

Well Liars lie and cheaters cheat and if that’s you well then what does that make me?
It doesn’t matter;
I know what they’ll think.
It’s all your fault but I’m to blame.
Should have known better, should have realized your misleading smiles and dead end lies.
Looking back I wish I knew this was just a game that you refused to lose.

Lying tongues are clumsy and you’re no exception,
Of all the things you said you forgot to mention that you didn’t want me,
I just passed the time.  
How naive can I get to think you’d be mine?
Must have been love struck, cause’ I sure was blinded.
Got lost in your eyes and I couldn’t find my way out.
Am I out now?

I’ve been replaying all of the nights,
Looking for signs where you might have implied that you’d never leave her,
I don’t understand. What would she think of you holding my hand?
I still remember the things that you said, the way that you laughed, and the hope that you left.
The way that your eyes looked that night in your truck,
Kept me holding on to feelings I must have made up.
I didn't know that it was a contest between what she has and I don't.
I guess I was falling in love alone.

Reality hits you like a ton of bricks,
When you’ve been dreaming for so long.
Never thought it’d come to this,
I never thought I’d be so wrong.
But when the walls came down,
And the truth came out, I learned to justify,
And the space between right and wrong, turned into a fragile line.

So go ahead, and take her hand,
Whisper in her ear, pretend I’m not sitting there, and get lost in her eyes.
I’m just a naïve girl, who couldn’t figure out the truth from the lies,
And you’re the boy who ******* me over too many times.

You’ve always had your way with words, you had me figured out.
You knew how to keep me hanging on until she’d come back around.
I spent so much wasted time, sitting around and wondering why, I wasn’t good enough.
Said you knew I’d get attached, but you thought I’d be okay. And now all you have to say is I’m sorry?

I played with fire and I got burned,
After five years you’d think I’d learn, but I kissed you back.
I bet you were thinking of her.