Could have brought my heart back
So it was once again mine to lose
I muffled my voice in hesitation
And I gave you the chance to choose

You didn't try to even reach out
As I gave you opportunity to do
Instead you used your words to woo me
And in wooing make me the obedient fool

I told you so many times before
That from your words I am immune
They only disrespected me
When you expected too much too soon

And now you start to hold your tongue
But it is too late as it was before
Your promise of trying and dealing with the pain
Is a lie I shall be a fool of no more

I stopped giving but I still give it all
I said goodbye with no intention of leaving at all
I just bid farewell to the person I was waiting for
Who would see me and know me
Unlike this person blinding themselves from what they saw

I just hoped that maybe one day would come
To light the darkness with the morning sun
Perhaps then I would be able to see
That the person I hoped to be speaking to
Was actually listening to me

I felt contented for a while
And I admit that I felt reason to smile
Yet that lonely feeling that so briefly subsided
Appeared from behind your cloud
And the truth once again with me collided

I hope it is finally understood
What I could not say even if I knew I should
But maybe you'll accept that the time will not come
That your footprint will never even start to fill
Those that were there when time had not yet begun

It just stopped being
And in that moment it all cut out
No more did your light shine for me
Or could your jests spark electricity
I just loved you, then did not.

I did not feel the loss
Nor question my spontaneity
The jump to the opposite did not jolt me
Or even doubt wash over me
You were once ahead, now behind.

I guess I should have told you
The least give reason as to why
Your innocence to my sudden parting
Was my guilt for even starting
What I did, was finally done.

So I don't write quite as much as before
And I've tried to, mostly in vain.
So I want to ask anyone who will reply to message me which, if any, poems they feel most personal to them- that they can relate to.

I'll write one more. For old times sake as well as new.
Thanks

I apologise to you in sincerity
For the way I have behaved
I must admit that my austerity
May have your certainty caved

It is nothing to do with you
At least not completely
For it is my weakness of but a few
That has lured my attention so sweetly

I want to tell you from my heart
That my feelings are unchanged
But if my distance has you wishing to part
Your mind I will not try to change

I ask you for another shot
I know it may be too late
But I believe if you put your coins in the ***
Your gamble will have winnings great

I have a night secret
That I cannot seem to hide
When dwellings in my toxic habitat
My face shows a darker side

It is still me I must admit
This monster by whom I am possessed
Its words that contradict how I feel
Is my fault I must confess

He tried to delay me with words of care
Though reassured did I not feel
His advice he gave without spare
Made anger boil from my very heel

Another swept me off my feet and held me
Promising safety in his arms
Yet the kindness he gave was not for free
Seeking my praise for all his charms

The third did not bother at all
To try to learn my name
And presumed his authority
But my heart he could never tame