I was consumed for years by you
Drowning in my own love
I have now resurfaced
From the depths of you
While some days were good
Some were bad too
And I finally coughed up the heartbreak
I was letting myself choke on
I cannot love a man
Who was not dedicated to loving me
Who ever I am
I am me now
Alone,
As scary and new as that may be
And while I still dream
Of my happy ending
I know I can't keep expecting you to choose me
Maybe someday someone else will choose me
Without doubt or question
Maybe they will love me without breaking me
It will happen one day
Because I know I deserve that happiness
I deserve to know what it feels like
To wake up everyday
And just smile.
Thank you for helping me stop hurting myself but I want happiness now...no more heartbreak...no more leaving me.