I've admired you, with all your flaws.
Held you, even when the shards of your broken heart cut me,
Bruised me, they stung even after they healed.
I carried the weight of your emotions,
Even though my fragile body could barely carry the weight of mine.
I cared for you, even with the pain you caused me.
Reassured you, time and time again that you had my forgiveness.
You abused it, used it to your advantage only to sooner disregard it.
I listened to you talk about someone else,
When all I wanted to hear you say was my name, over and over till I grew tired of the sound
I trusted you, with all the lies I'd heard.
Believed in you, with all my heart that you could be the person you wanted to be.
Still you doubted me, never believed in how important I believed you were.
You chose the easier road,
Ignoring the support I'd promised and worked hard to give.
I loved you, but I couldn't tell you.
You were blinded, unable to see that all that I had done for you only meant this.
So I let go. Of me and you and everything between us.
Stopped trying so hard to make you happy,
Because you never did any of it for me.
And so you admire me, for all that you knew I did for you.
And you wish to hold me, but the shards of your broken heart scatter
And you search for them, losing sight of me and all that we could have been
And my heart will always be waiting, even if I'm not, so take your time
One day you'll notice the signs.
You can only give someone so much of yourself.
And I feel, personally, that once they have a certain part of you, that you can't really have it back, not all of it at least.
They carry it, and you oddly feel that weight of that part that you let go for them.
That's why I say, my heart will always be waiting, even if I'm not.
Because even though I may not belong to them any more, it still does.