ravage me.*

except not quite,

I just want someone to want me so much emotionally

so much that it transcends the physical want.

But that someone wants me so much emotionally

that they want to be as close to me as possible

as much a part of me as they can be

so their emotional want

turns into a craving so strong its expressed physically

in a primitive manner

with every second being spent trying to get as unified as possible.

I feel your pain
because I want to
I watch from the outside
and then I bring it inside.


I think people are
playing god
which is ironic because
I don't believe in god
or people.


Sipping hot apple tea
and I burnt my tongue
and it hurts
but not nearly as much as you
so I embrace it.


Please help me forget
you.
I see little bits of you in everyone;
your crooked smile
loose curls
boyish laugh
and I hate you.


You know that I love
you
though.
Disregard everything I said
if it means
we can talk again.


Everyone walks by
not noticing
or noticing wrong
and I
am noticing
everything.

No
stop
don't
cut.
Put the blade down,
little girl,
pretty girl.
I promise
you will
have more love.
He isn't the last.
Please
don't hurt yourself
like he did
worse
permanent.
Your beautiful
porcelain skin
is full of scars
and blood
and oh no.
Stop
please
before you
go too far.
Listen
to my words
because I care
and
I'm scared.
You're shaking
and your colour is gone.
Please
don't
let yourself
fade.
Pretty baby
didn't you know
I loved you
we
loved you.