i thought maybe if I looked at you the way the stars see the moon

then maybe you would look at me the way the earth follows the sun

but the only reaction I received was
how the moon saw the sun when it first rised

fleeting and without a second glance

The reasons I pray are much larger
Than self.
I'm ignoring my pain, my debt and
My health.

I don't drop to my knees or clench my
Eyes tight.
I just open my soul and forget all
My fright.

I don't get the chills. I don't hear
Any sounds.
I don't feel the angels fixing
My frown.

I don't see the lights. I don't hear a
Harp playing.
But I do know God hears what
I'm saying.

I'm free of my pleasures, temptations
And such.
I'm not waiting for choirs or a
Healing touch.

I really have no goals when I'm
Praying besides,
To be free from the selfishness of
My mind.