I can promise you
second hand nicotine and
so many muddy metaphors and
every ounce of poetic nonsense
you've always wished for
I can promise you
tangerines, sticky kisses
and little glances
that will swell your heart
with something that could only be
special
I can promise you
that it won't be
I can promise you
that I'll run
I can promise you
that you should take these promises
and
run faster

I watched the film
not because she told me to,
but because she told me she enjoyed it.
You must understand how important this is.

~

Remember? Please God, say you do.

take what you will
we all choose our poison(s)
we've only got time
(and ourselves) to ****,
so don't overcalculate
the moments
that we're given

I was awake
for 49 hours
and I told him
that I was the sun

can you see the future
or I suppose a future
is what I'm getting at,
but I'm asking so much more
than that
I know what you have to say
and I don't want to hear it
in the first place

self harm
can pass undetected
as simply existing

four hundred ninety four days.
forever became
an impossible promise.

I can't blame a soul
for being soulless
I cannot keep control
on a broken conscience

sent back
flashing fear
furious invisibility
of all the things
who knew
that this would **** me