i lie there,
it's cold
the window
is open
just a crack

it's a fresh
october night
he's smoking
and oddly,
i feel safe

in his embrace
surrounded
by the eerie
cigarette fumes
warmed by the
bitter taste*
of his breath on
my lips

and i loved him
everyday
i loved him
every night

i'll never second guess,
*not for a minute

strawberry is like the taste of your cheeks
and
that of the sensation your lips

roses are like the smell of your hands
and
the air that circles around you

rouge lipstick stains your tie
and
the tips of your collar

why must you lie to me so?

when i said i needed you i
never thought it would be this real
as real as the flower petals that hit the floor
i waited for your knock on the door


the distant stars give a lovely glimmer
the mirror reflection that of a sinner
i wait for you every night
you always come home to a ready dinner

they said you lied
they said you stole
they said you beat the neighbour

you were a bad love of mine i know
but so was the flower*
to the soil
*he needed so

like the stars
kiss the sky,
i kiss you too.

not like the moon
says goodbye,
i say hello
to you.

and as the night grow later
my heart grows fonder

i'll love you as the moonlight shades us

tiger stripes
of painful nights
litter the arm she writes with

she ponders
and cries
she hopes she can lie

for one more night
while the others
**believe her

the chemicals of your love
bleed like the punctured veins
of my innocence
and lucidity

your love is what feeds the sun,
the brightness in my heart

your love is what warms the sky,
the fondness in my eyes

your love is what drizzles in the air,
the tears on my cheek*

your love is what the winds are,
the hurricane in my head

your love is like the dark night,
i'm lost and i'm looking for light

your love is like what could've been,
an abandoned city inside of me

your love is all dry and gone,
*like the trench you built in my heart

like the way i felt
absolutely alone
was the same when i thought
you were absolutely mine

there were many similarities, between me and you
when i said i wanted to die, i was serious, i thought you were too
when i pulled the trigger i thought that we'd be together for eternity
"in heaven baby" you said
i gave you my last chance

i love absolutely everything that is wrong with you

the way you;
smoke,
drink,
and tease

the way you;
laugh,
joke,
and swear

i'll always love you my sweetling,
my darling,
my love,
and my heart

but like i tell you over,
and over,
and over,
again

i'll absolutely love you,
cherish you,
and hold you,
for every reason possible

for everything that's wrong with you

and we scream to hear ourselves aloud, it's easier to bark instead of bow. you say you'll leave you pack our things. but here you are back again. i love you mummy of course i do. daddy scares me, more than you.* please leave him, i know you must.

*mummy won't you trust us?

misty surroundings,
i cry from within.

i try to see,
you die in the midst.

i seek comfort in the floor,
cold and damp.

praying for you, my darling,*
*give me one last chance.

but like the sun
dies down,
as it fears
the moon.*
i fear too,
but it's only of
*you.

like i grow old,
my loves grows strong

as you do too,
i'll always watch from above

always empty
never lonely
i take company
in the night

tears flow like tears do
i knew i still loved you
expected me to wait a day
i cried for you at night

of course it's perfect,*
the tension that is.
it's clear and free of concern.

to **** and be ****** back.
in any* tense of the word.

i love you is bland
i love you is dry
how do i do so,
can you tell me why?

i could love you for the little things
the car rides
the coffees
the opening of the door

i could love you for the big things
the sickness
the rich
the poor
and the old

but could you love me,
like i love you?

could you love me for all the things,
could you love me for loving you?

he had*
such a bright smile
it was ruined
*by her dark spirit

to be the one to call home
to be
to be the one i want alone
the one
to be the one i need for my own
to be
the one

the one for me

on days
like this
i wonder
if you

look at
the sky
and think

of me
too