There seems to always be a tear in my eye, when you're not here.
For when you're away ther is always the possibility of no return.
You put your life at risk, for who?
For those who could careless and waste their freedom on drugs?
The country you fight for, is not worth it anymore.
I wish for you to be here, and help take care of our family.

WE need you!!! The little ones ask:
"When is daddy coming home?"
They think you're at work, so I tell them to be patient.
Just a little while longer.
They're to the age to realize you may never be back.

Laying in my Bed at night, I ask why.
Why does god prolong your return?
Why I must lie to my children,
Not knowing if you're dead or alive.

Our letters seem to be the only thing Keeping my hope a live.
For the day, They Stop coming, will be the day my world crashes.

I heard there was an accident.
State Marshalls pulled up,with a envelope in there hands.
My knees buckled.
They said they found your lifeless body, in a pile of sand.

Now, you're never coming home.
Our children rage. Wanting to know why.
All because you felt the need to fight for a country.
A country based on Lies.

I tell them our stories.
And how much you loved them,
How much you Never meant to leave them.
For weeks we shared the same tears.
Constantly carrying them in our eyes.
Every plane, every loud noise,
I start to cry. If it were not for our children,
I would surely Die.

I lay in the darkest of fields, staring into the nights stars
Thinking of you. Of my trust that I put in you.
You say that you will never hurt me,  
Nor break your promises like those before.
How do I know that when I feel like I hardly know you at all.

The promises you make, you say you'll keep.  
You're determined to-in them- make me believe.
But I'm scared of disappointment,
So to believe, I refuse.  
I wish it were different,  
Unfortunately it's not.

Will it ever be?
That I do not know.  
I guess in time,
The result result will eventually show.

Anger can consume ones whole mind and body.
Encaged, it fights to break free.
You fight to stay in control,
But just a single tear is a sign, a trophy, showing that Anger has won.
And you have lost pathetically.

After so much pain, so much confusion
The tears become more frequent.
Like water from a stream, flowing down the ***** of a mountain.
Perhaps it cries too, then.

Despite all inhabitants in the surrounding environment,
Loneliness is felt.
All thought is lost, word's take by the wind.
No voices are heard, everything has gone mute.

All that is left to do is to find an escape,
A way to release all which you hide inside.

When your soul is shattered, How  do find the will to continue on?
All you feel is loneliness and sorrow. Isolating all from your life, you begin.
Some worry and question your actions,
You wish to vent, but not towards others,  
For the fear of letting them in.
You believe they can not understand,  
That they will only judge.

For each pain and regret you feel inside,
There is a slash.
A slash of wounded flesh.
What was once internal has now become external.
You turn the emotional into physical.
You feel and think as if each healing will weaken your sorrowful feeling.
As each wound is healed, a scar is left. It represent apart of you.
It represent all the pain You put me through.

All those you once held near, now turn their backs.
You see now that you should have accepted their help.
You now wish you could back track.Now they will not understand your actions,  
For you will not receive a chance to explain.
You believed to keep them from worrying, only to make it worse.  
So now the isolation of everyone has become true.
With no one to ever accompany you.
And now forever you’ll be,
A victim of your minds treacherous torment.

Light comes with day
Darkness comes with night
Listen to your heart; it’s usually always right.
Keep it hidden, locked away.
Don’t let anyone in, make sure all stay out.
Make sure your lock is nice and stout.

You must not let your guard fall,
For if you do, then so will you.
They’ll take advantage if you let them in.
Lead you to believe all their lies and rip your heart apart.
Their love is false, you can feel it in your heart.

Don’t fall for their act,
For all love is, is a lifelong trap.
If you see them blindly, you won’t see your landing.
You won’t see their deceit until it’s too late.
Not until you’ve given your heart; for them to break.

So shield your heart, lock it away.
Don’t you let anyone in, for if you do……  
It will only be anger and pain you will feel in the end.
Keep it safe, don’t be a fool.
For love can be exceedingly cruel.