The boy went by Samuel and the girl by Beth
He planned for his future while she awaited her death
Never a likely couple, they put romance to the test
She had cuts on her wrists and a void in her heart
Still, he thought she was gods finest work of art
There were years of love, of picnics and fun
Never would you guess their romance would be done
But he thought he could fix her, rid her of her vice
When he couldn't, he felt his love couldn't suffice
Beth's cuts were deep and Sam's patience, thin,
One more slice and his temper would give in,
She tried to stop but still resisted the change,
She found his love exceedingly strange
It couldn't be taken, and alas she cut
He began stammering in rage, screaming, "WHAT"
He ran to the shed, knowing what he'd find there
And hoisted the axe, high into the air
Sam ran her down and looked her in the eye
And brought the axe down, screaming,
"If you want to die, die"

I love him. He is keeping me sane. He is my rock. Butterflies flurry at just his smallest touch. He is my Edward Cullin, he is a mystery to me. He isn't easy to read. He might get jealous, but he doesn't show it. I love him, but i feel like he doesn't love me. When he smiles, it makes me feel happy. When he's sad, I'm sad. If he's angry, well i try and understand and see his reasoning for it. But i'd swim the ocean for him, even if he is my guy who wouldn't cross a puddle for me. As bad as it might sound, its the truth. I love you as much as any 14 year old girl can love someone. When i think about you, i think of memories we'll make, memories that were made, and how i'm the luckiest girl in the world to be able to say that you're mine and only mine. So don't ever think i don't love you because... Well.....


                                 I DO!

Cried over you last night. Not promising it will be the last, but i just miss you and need you so much. Baby, please come back.

You cannot love
Two people at once
Even if they are on opposite sides
Of the country
Even if one is on the west coast
And the other is on the east
It still isn't possible
Eventually you will mix feelings like liquor
Forgetting how many shots of promise you've offered to each
How many times you've poured their glasses half empty
It is reckless behavior
That never ends well
Only in sickness and a headache in the morning

You cannot care
For two souls equally
It is not fair
To separate passion in half
When it is only meant to be given as a whole
And one will surely sense the uneven in the balance
Like a sinking boat with a crack in the base
Water flows to a side and leaves the other drowned
Gasping for air
For some sense of meaning
The sea is too dangerous to dive directly in
And it's impossible to be everybody's saviour
So don't promise rescue
To both
When you only have one flotation device

You cannot hold
Two hearts together
At the same time
Your hands are not big enough
They are too clumsy to balance the weight of disappointment
And theirs will be heavy when your shaking fingers release them
Dropping everything you've attempted to fit inside
Disaster will takeover
A hurricane of hurt will rush in
Leaving you empty and barren
With open palms
You will regret not holding on to one thing tightly
Instead you chose to grab on to two
And ended up with neither
That's what you get
For choosing quantity over quality
For stuffing your arms with more than you could carry
You get nothing
In return for greed.

I remember the day you told me you were leaving.
It broke my heart and ruined my world.
If i could take back EVERYTHING i had done wrong
It might be everything, but i just want to start over
I hate myself bc i let you go so easy
Now i see what i lost every effin day and i hate myself.

Just looking at you makes me feel like crap
I lost you for good and i really need you
I want to try again and start as friends
Start from the beginning
I cry every night.
I just miss you.

Baby, there's things i'd love to tell you, but im scared. Scared you'll hate me. Scared you'll never want to start over. Scared that i'll lose you. I miss your stupid smile, your pointless facts, i love! The way you make me smile, just by looking at me. You can give me butterflies the easiest of ways. You make me want to flood the oceans, with my tears, and you make me feel so happy. If i could change back the clock i would. I would try and be better. I told you from the beginning that i was a challenge, and im guessin you didnt believe me... Im sorry. Sorry i was so cruel-hearted. Sorry that i didnt think about you in my actions... Sorry i still love you because you've moved on and im still crying oceans for you.