A bitter heartbeat
So beautiful, but wrong
Can you feel the doubt in my mind
as you're grazing my temple
Moving the hair pressed against my cheek
behind my ears
A gentle embrace,
but I see what you want
Words don't make sense when I'm with you,
I forget the person I want to be,
And turn into want you want
A darkness that matches yours  
To make you feel a little better about
your lack of light,
I just want to make you more
But you only see me in the dark

Contentment rolls off my tongue when I whisper your name, how did I get so lucky?
to open my eyes and see a world of stars that were already in front of me.

You fill my soul with every glance,
But why can't I look at you?
Every ounce of my being aches
to be beside you, closer to you
as you lay right next to me.
All I can think about,
all consuming.
You give me the good bruises,
The bruises that don't hurt
when I touch them,
When I look at them.
I feel you in my heart,
fighting to come to the surface
as my over thinking
every action mindset
keeps pushing you down
Farther
And
Farther
I can't let it be,
But I know this feeling is right
You make it easy to love you
with beautiful words
All I could want,
A soul that matches mine
In sync with our bodies
pushed against each other
Without the words I still know
the feeling,
I love you
But why can't I look at you?

Heavy hearts
Seen
Through
Heavy
Eyes...
What're we
all holding
on to?

When I think about beauty
           I see laughter
              I see everything I've ever wanted
Driving down the highway,
  Windows rolled down
watching the cool air graze the skin
    Of the person I love
         Holding back from telling them  
          how much they shine
As my whole body fills with butterfly's,
     but they'll know it.
They'll see it and they'll feel it too
Moving through the motions
without overthinking them
  Beauty is all of my favorite things
The excitement of live music
  Or a favorite song on the radio
   Always living for intimate
    shared moments
   Talking about dreams
   as the night turns to day
Time is never a concept when
you're too happy to notice,
and that's beautiful.

One day you’ll see me in a dream
or in the words of a new book
that catches your interest.

You can think back on the
love affair we shared and
I hope you smile
I always do
So short lived it never
got to blossom but I know it was real.
No matter how our paths
separate I still think of your
laugh, your smile, and
my heart feels full.

I lived in your world for
what felt like a lifetime
but passed by to others
in seconds. 

Deep down I know it
can’t be replaced,
a connection so strong
it felt like I could do anything.

My world was at peace
the moment your lips
pressed against mine.

An addiction sounds negative
but that’s what you were,
my addiction.
What I felt with you is what
everyone wishes to feel:

inspired, beautiful,
on top of this world.
But I know you’ll see me,
and I hope you smile too.

You talked in touch when all I really wanted was to hear the sound of your voice. When the only words we spoke were in between sighs I knew you could never feel the same. You stained my lips with empty words and a hope so strong I eventually broke. The worst part isn’t the promises I thought I saw in your eyes but that I actually believed any of them. My fingertips long for the touch of your skin, to be glued to the inside of your palm where they felt like they belonged. An absence unexplainable because you weren’t even mine to begin with. I felt at home when you wrapped your arms around me so tight I couldn’t breathe, in the best possible way. You taught me what it’s like to miss something so much it hurts, and I’m still here trying to figure out if that’s a bad thing.