it's the same as before
or the other time
or the time before that.
here's a ****
and here's a ****
and here's trouble.

only each time
you think
well now I've learned:
I'll let her do that
and I'll do this,
I no longer want it all,
just some comfort
and some ***
and only a minor
love.

now I'm waiting again
and the years run thin.
I have my radio
and the kitchen walls
are yellow.
I keep dumping bottles
and listening
for footsteps.

I hope that death contains
less than this.

They say that love’s blind
And there’s always a rush
You forget what is obvious
It’s lost in the buzz
But deep in your conscience
An alarm softly sounds
That you quickly ignore
As your heart leaps in bounds
Your friends they all warn you
And you say What’s the fuss?
Then you look the wrong way
And get hit by a bus

I used to be afraid of:
Going numb
Being disliked
Love
Heartbreak
Scars
Wounds
Fear.

Now, I’ll show you my wounds and you’ll lick mine. Salt may spill form the corners of my  eyes but I know your smooth fingers will remedy the pain. I’m certain that showing you the pain, the anger, the love, the truth will only build us higher. Only grow us stronger.
Molly. Your pasts don’t scare me, you wounds, they hurt me, but don’t worry. I’ll remedy them, if you’ll let me. I’ll lick the blood from your limbs and pull the shrapnel from your side I’ll swallow the pain your sick of eating, because I can.
Molly, I’ll live with you in this moment. I’ll love with you until our time runs out.

But for now I want you to know a few things.
I love you.
The way your body curves around mine is perfect.
I keep my eyes wide, so I can remember every second.
I wish San Francisco was right now.
I know we’re special.
I’d give up anything for this.
I love losing myself in us.
Being myself is easier when you’re around.
Your hands are lovely.
Your smile is better than any sunny day.

Molly, you should know, I want forever.
I want you, forever.
And I’ll love you no matter what.

I can’t seem to get
The hurting to stop
The emotions run deep
And I can’t let it drop
You breeze into my life
And dance up a storm
You embrace and you leave
As if it’s the norm
And I’m left with this churning
And deep sense of loss
But you’re happy and smiling
As if there’s no cost
I don’t like where it’s going
Or what I’ve been through
It’s a choice how I feel
And it’s not something new
I’ve had it explained
So often before
You just can’t force open
A closed, bolted door
So peace is a treasure
You give to yourself
How you face disappointment
And the dreams that you’ve shelved

The lovers touched
Their bodies trembling
The kiss of nectar
The heat descending
The embrace of love
And lust’s desire
The warmth of soul
The burning fire
The tender sweetness
And the passion
Forgotten feelings
Back in fashion
Seconds of peace
All pain healing
All darkness banned
And lightness feeling
Precious moments
Of joy and bliss
Ignited with a touch
And a single kiss

The man and the maiden
Have a dance going on
Of trust and connection
Before armour donned
The warrior and goddess
Each in their power
The key’s with the goddess
That beautiful flower
Who holds total control
Of the man’s heart
Who brings life to the earth
Gives the race a new start
Who looks for a man
Who’ll approach her with honour
Who’ll keep his commitments
And her trust garner
A man who is alive
With passionate fire
But grounded and strong
With calm, cool, desire
Who passes the tests
The maiden may throw
In casual remarks
To see her man grow
That sweet combination
Of a man standing tall
With a heart wide open
And backbone
And *****