What would I have found myself with

Had I looked up from the ashes

That my life had become

And seen no one there to help me up?

What mountain could I have traversed

Without you, and you, and you to allow me to be heard

Loving you like lovers

There could never be another

Of each and every one of you

And I plainly see

The bits of all of you in me

Like compass points and northern stars

Guiding me along the way

Sweeping up my shattered, still beating heart

Raining on my rainy day.

I'd like to pay the Piper
For him to whistle me home
To saddle me with the consequence
For a lifetime spent alone
But the sound of retribution
Always rings cold and stiff
And there'll be no compensation
For this life I've been living with

I'm ready to love again
To **** again
Though not one without the other
Back scars and
Beating hearts
Pressed together
How deep can your fingernails dig?
I want to hear you whisper my name
I want you to take my hand
And pull me into the storm
Ignoring the deluge
And the cacophony
Nevermind the rain
Your eyelashes are enough to shield us
Smile, or smirk
I really don't care
So long as you kiss like you mean it
Pulling me close until it hurts
Don't bite your lip
I'll do it for you
As you look on in ecstasy
Love me until it physically hurts
Love can't hurt me

Wherever you are
I hope you can look back on your choices
Happy and guilt free
Silencing all your inner voices
Telling you to keep wandering

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does it hurt when you think of me
Because it hurts when I think of you
I hope you're remembering
All the things you couldn't do

I know I'm still lingering
You can keep sobbing otherwise
But everyone can see
The dreams playing just behind your eyes

You won't rid yourself of me
I'm not so simply disregarded
Time will tell which of us is moving on
And who's still broken hearted

(Chorus)
Does it hurt when you think of me
Because it hurts when I think of you
I hope you're remembering
All the things you couldn't do

I'm like a firecracker
Too volatile to tame
And you're just a forgotten flame
Burning down

(Chorus)
Does it hurt when you think of me
Because it hurts when I think of you
I hope you're remembering
All the things you couldn't do

Walking down the street
I often trip
Over the despondant and pathetic husks
Of Moral Invalids
It is easy to gloss over
The danger and contamination
The way these people pollute life
With delusions and manifestations
Rooted in their simple minded
Conjuration of the will of invisible men
Unfortunately the majority is swayed
Clinging desperately to
False comforts congregation brings
Interaction with them is dangerous
Even with a brush
One can catch the contagion of ill conformity
There is no method for aversion
We're continually besieged by
The Invalids

I watch the candle burning
The flame flickering
Pushing my hand into its midst
I feel the curious strength of something
That doesn't quite seem to exist
Evanescing, casting shapeless silhouettes
So powerful
It deteriorates that which surrounds it
Simultaneously essential
And malevolently destructive

I like to feel the heat of the wax
Dripping on my finger tips
As I grip it tightly
Pain is only a byproduct of sensitivity
Of which we can never have
In too small a quantity
I'd rather feel the pain
Watching the beads roll down my arm
Than lose that strength
In compartmentalizing
And someday you'll find me
Not burnt, not melted, but
Dancing like a shadow on the wall

Some mornings I wake up
And everything I feel is magnified
It must be
The artistry within me
Surfacing so clearly
Through wilting eyelids I shine
Half scrawling
Fingers dancing with exhaustion
Fatigue lowers my defenses
Exposing me to the world