Words ringing in
                    My
                       Head
                          Trying
                                 To
                            Sleep
                     Focused
More on imagining

What life would be,
Be          Like          If
I           Wasn't      Here
I           Imagine      It'd

      Be so much more
    Lovely
Innocent
     Perfect
         Even
        Without My vile

Flawed self poisoning
It's       Magic            All
The      Trouble         I've
Caused  gone,        Erased
From      Our            History

-----I am afraid of pain
             Yet it              Is
          What   I          Crave
          Most     Why      Did
        Fate           Choose me
  To be so
   Afraid
Of life