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Apr 2013 Alex L

Cece

everything

is a haze

my vision
is blurred

while
everything
moves

excruciatingly
slow.

a week feels like a month

and I dont want to talk to anyone
or even be around people at all.

it hurts to think of you
because waiting
is impossible.

and I feel faint
when I skim across
the thought
that I
can't kiss you
goodnight

I don't want to think
at all;
I don't want to exist.

I shut down
while you're away.

I hide
and wait
to become
human again.

CT

Feb 2012 Alex L

Smitten

Feb 2012 Alex L

Peyton Leigh Stille

Smitten

Sometimes things are too familiar
to be changed by the name of a date
or the face of a feeling
or the feeling of being smitten.

Sometimes things are too familiar
and freshly arranged flowers won't change
a past that has already been written

However,
Some things can offer fresh fruit
...but some things should never be bitten.

But I'll bite,
and I'll fight
written scripts with lines for me to speak

because I am oh so very smitten.

Jan 2012 Alex L

Little Sister

Jan 2012 Alex L

Cece

Little Sister

I'm sorry I can't tell you stories,
and play with you on your swing set.
I'm not going to be there
to braid your hair
and boss you around.
                       You would never know.

You won't remember
that time I held you
while you napped.
                       I changed your diaper once,
                       but you won't remember that either.

It scares me
that you might not know
I exist.
                      If you never saw me again,
                      you would never know
I love you.
And I'm here.

Jan 2012 Alex L

Walking

Jan 2012 Alex L

Sam Schedler

Walking

There is nothing insignificant in walking past someone.

A whole universe just strolled by,
their anxiety caused by that test coming up,
their worldview that differs from yours,
their moments of joy
pure adrenaline
depression
monotony,
their troubles that may trump yours
their Aunt with that terminal disease
or the Dad that's never home,
their mental to-do lists that grow and grow and grow,
their images of reading on that comfy chair,
their time spent by the bonfire,
and their favorite quote that's always in their head.

But we just keep walking despite all there is to see,
and we're thankful for the people that walk by our side,
and share in our moments,
our troubles,
our images,
our time.

I thought of this after walking past a stranger and thinking something along the lines of, "Wow, I know absolutely nothing about her. Her life could be crazy and interesting or super duper sad but I'll never know."

Jan 2012 Alex L

Set Your Priorities Straight.

Jan 2012 Alex L

Cece

Set Your Priorities Straight.

.                                                                                                                                                                               Inhale
Your eyelids heavily weigh down.
A warm, calming sensation
is passed throughout your entire body.
                                                                                                                                                                               Exhale
Feel the gravitational pull
on your limbs.
Focus on sensory details;
the scratchiness of the tag on your shirt,
your matted hair.
Feel your toes naturally resting
against one another,
and the warmth of everything around you.
                                                                                                                                                         Take a deep breath.
Look around you.
Do you notice yourself smiling?
Well, you should.

You should smile because
you are here.
You are alive and well.
and you are here.
                                                                                                                                                                Keep breathing.
This is real.
You, are real.
And this? This is reality.
& If that isn't something to smile about -
then I don't know what is.


                                                                                                                                                    You are so lucky to exist.

Jan 2012 Alex L

The Choice is Yours

Jan 2012 Alex L

Cece

The Choice is Yours

Sluggishly you frump to school
passing by people
whose faces you'll soon forget.
      They don't matter,
don't waste your time.
            tick tock.

You go to practice
your meeting
rehearsal.
      Whatever it is
you group yourself in
to feel like you belong.
      And for what else?
To look good on a college application
maybe; the motions of it
are the only thing
that matters.
Paying attention, making memories
is not traditional thought process.
How will that look on a transcript?
            tick tock.

You mindlessly drive home
not paying attention
to the miniscule details
of the nature around you.
      It doesn't directly effect you
so you see no point in admiring it.
what's the need?
            tick tock.

You lock yourself in your room
and open the books
that surrounded you
for seven hours already today
and work for two or three more
hours of your precious evening.
      You do it because
that's what is expected of you.
      Monotonous efforts that someday
you will be unable to recall.
            tick tock.

                          When was the last time you have done something
                                  that you will be able to vividly remember
                                                      years from now?

You are
wasting
your
time.
                                                                                                                                                            Go. *Live.