Gone from my mind,
Left everything behind.
No trace of disappearance,
No bread crumb trail.
Vanished without a trace,
Just to escape this place.
This place of emptiness,
Hole of lifeless despair.
Find the clean crisp air,
Hide from the city lights.
Burst into the sky,
Fly with angels on high.
I will be gone from thought,
If only for awhile.

Rainy days,
Bring me back down memory lane.
Overnight stays,
Keeping me from going insane.
Back to the good old times,
Seeing friends long lost.
Missing the sunshine,
Catch the ball that was tossed.
Rainy days,
Stroll down memory lane.
No one stays,
They just come back again.

Stay in the lines,
Bright and vivid colors.
Gentle wax shavings,
Filling a blank canvas.
To be a child once more,
And create chaos on a page.
On the walls of your grandma's house,
Or the kitchen counter.
To ignore the lines society set in place,
And be free again.

I bleed my words onto this paper,
My pain,
My thoughts.
Crimson red flowing,
Forming each letter carefully.
Every word,
Reveals my true self.
Bled out onto paper,
Nothing but words,
Nothing more.

I close my eyes and there you are,
Looking gorgeous as ever.
Your soft cream colored skin,
Your lush pink lips.
I want to reach for you,
Pull you close to me.
Feel your heartbeat race with mine,
Sense each compression of your chest with my own.
Every time I reach you slip further away,
Farther from my warm embrace.
I never want to open my eyes so I can hold on to this moment,
The tighter I close my eyes the more you slip.

I can't be the guy standing outside your window blaring a song for you,
I can't be that guy waiting in the pouring rain.
I can't be the guy who stops you from getting on the plane,
I can't be that guy who chases the cab with you in it as it drives away.
I can only be one person,
I can only be me.
I can't stop a wedding, bullets, cars, or trains.
But you can stop my heart,
You can make me lose my breath.
Life is nothing like the movies,
I just want to be that guy from the movies who gets the girl.

Sitting in the darkness,
Wanting nothing,
Needing nothing.
The emptiness surrounds me,
No light for miles,
No hope to be found.
The darkness breaks me down,
Drains my spirit,
Drains me of life.
The darkness makes me cold,
Consumes me,
Corrupts me.