"if you jump, i jump. i will never leave you behind."*
he says.
those words were the last few words he told me.
and i'm here, saying sorry.
dear you,
i'm sorry for not jumping with you.
i was supposed to
and i didn't stop you.
i swear it was nothing intentional,
i loved you with all my heart,
and i will never forget you.
but that's the thing,
you came in first
and i was supposed to, second.
but i didn't.
because i was scared.
scared of falling
without you
you let go of my hand
as you fell from the ledge
of a rooftop of a small town.
a small town with the dark night gazing on top,
and the stars twinkling above.
i watched you fall
with my own eyes
as tears form around them
i regret everything.
"how could i find someone like you, now that you're gone?"
i say.
rain splattered down my hair
as i look down the pale body down the streets below
people were looking up
and i vanished away.
i didn't jump.
no, i didn't save you.
i didn't stop you.
i was there with my own eyes,
looking at you fall.
and i didn't do anything,
and i was blamed for everything.
you know i will always love you.
you know i should have stopped you.
i will never forget you,
and remember, i will always be there for you.