Do you hear how loud it gets when the silence devours the sound?
How lonely you really are, when there’s everyone imaginable around?
How weak you become when you fight against yourself.
How you're your own best friend, and worst enemy, but still, you want to be someone else.
The poison your demons give you, somehow brings you life.
They tell you that you have deeper wounds than those birthed by the sharpest knife.
It’s the continuous decisions that trap you in a cycle of regret.
You tell yourself that you like the dark,
but you just haven’t seen the light yet.
You tell the shadows that you’ll do better, when you promised yourself that you won’t.
You convince yourself that you’re the only one that understands yourself, when you know **** well, you don't.
You like the way you bite love.
Maybe you like the way love bites.
You crave the pressure, the pain, the game
The way it excites.
Crying feels like happiness.
Living, yet yearning to die
Balance is the key to destruction.
The truth is just a lie.
Blow out the candle.
Look into the mirror
It’s the only way to see her.
She’s not afraid of you.
She’s afraid of reality, and what you’ll see in her.
She sees you when there’s no one.
You see her when there’s everyone.
But every time you approach her, you realize gratefully…
That there’s no one.
No one… except you.

Your warmth
My habitual coldness
Skin to skin
Fast heartbeats
Unsatisfied hands
Soft kisses
Now passionately racing
Delicate touches
Now desirous grabs
Our bodies pressed together
Your hands tangled in my hair
My hands wrapped around the curves of your shape
The very shape you don’t know is perfect
You use harsh eyes to critique the beauty
Your eyes roll when I acknowledge your art
It’s okay, you don’t know yet
You haven’t looked outside to see the heavenly grace
You can’t see how you make sunsets jealous
Or how the waves quiver next to you
But that’s why i’m here.

So my lips will trace every line of you
A painter adoring their masterpiece
Until the day your eyes soften
And you feel what my hands have been saying all along
That you aren’t just a perfect picture
You’re the gallery, the sunrise, the ocean, the song.
And here I’ll stay…
To worship and to burn.

Share your secrets with me
And I'd keep them from the world

Dream your dreams with me
So that I could catch you if you fall

Tell me your fears
And I’ll be your armor

Whisper your deepest, darkest thoughts
And I’ll save you from yourself

Show me your insecurities
And I’ll give you my eyes so that you can see your perfections

Love me with all of you
And I promise I’d do the same

If you listen close enough, you’ll hear my ocean of sadness
Crashing my joy with its waves of pain
Under the moonlight of desire

You could break me twice if that’s what you desired
You could have brought me to my lowest low and I’d still put you higher
You could rip my heart out and I’d believe that it’s right
For loving you whilst you hurt me is how I brought my heart delight

One day someone will read my life in these words and fall in love
But what they won’t know is that this person is no longer here and now above