I realize that I treated you wrong,
You thought about all your possibilities,
And apparently I pushed you out.
If I had one more chance,
I would’ve done it right.

Rain drips down this window,
Like tears down my cheeks,
But I know even if I let you go,
The scars will continue to show.

Your love left me broken and defeated,
Unable to stand,
I still love you,
Even though you changed along the way.
Why is it I love you,
When all you do,
Is hate everything you’ve become.

My world continues to crumble,
At the sound of your voice,
Just know when I say,
It’s not my choice.

We walk as strangers,
In our now separate lives,
I’ll keep fighting,
But I’ll never win.

I’m so far away from you,
But I’ll live for right now,
With no difference between right,
And wrong.
Just know,
If I had one more chance...

...I would've done it right

             ~E.M.

Wooden fences,
 broken and cracked,
  maple trees,
   with wires collecting sap,

    Blooming flowers,
     red with rust,
      old country houses,
       beyond the narrow dirt road,

        Sacred memories,
         and timeless treasures,
          are hidden inside,
           I'll forever remember,
    
            Our old pastimes.

What I want is
enough money

To have what I want
what I want is

A good life
with only small cracks that I can repair

What I want is
a relaxful place to live

Where I'll never have to worry
what I want is

Everyone to be treated equal
so no one has to suffer

All I really want is
Peace.

She was a girl
no one ever chose
for teams or clubs
dances or dates

Upon a rock solid bench she weeps
hair cascading down her back
covering her face
and hiding her pain

A very adventurous girl she was
full of hope and joy
but her true feelings not shown
covered by the smile plastered on her face

She played the drums
to the beat of her heart
from the harp she would lean upon
each song, each string, each note, simply tore her apart

She was a girl
no one ever chose
for teams or clubs
dances or dates.

“If I say I wouldn't be hostile,
could you say you would do the same?
If we're all made just a little bit broken,
tell me who is to blame?”

We’ve all got battle scars,
wounds from fights we’ve already lost.
You made me promise not to get this bad,
but I can’t seem to control myself around you anymore.

The voices are building up,
I promised,
and I’m still not taking back my word,
but you’ve turned your back.
And you left me in the dark.

I thought I loved you,
but I realized this whole time I was wrong.
I break at the mere mention of your name,
driving my entire life downhill.

I’m always going to be,
a broken imperfect mess.
I tried to change for you,
but there’s nothing else to change.

I’m a damaged marionette,
lying in your disapproving hands.
But this won’t be my defeat.
With my bones exposed,
I stand up and fight.

Fighting for my life back,
for all I want to be.
I might have lost the battle,
but I’m going to win the war.

Lets see how much you need me.

I’m done playing your endless games,
find a different pawn,
I’m through.

“If I say I wouldn't be hostile,
could you say you would do the same?
If we're all made just a little bit broken,
tell me who is to blame?”

             ~E.M.

We saw the entrance
We ran in
We looked for each other
We didn't have a chance
We walked for hours
We dropped to our knees
We see each other the lights go out
We never could see again
We couldn't find the exit
We didn't stand a chance

JNL

she was a girl
no one ever chose
for teams or clubs
dances or dates

he was a boy
no one ever chose
for teams or clubs
sports or games

these people
see each other
each day
for 2 years

they walk by
each other not
stealing a glance
not knowing what could be

JNL