Alayna Mae

Alayna Mae Dec 2016

I used to be scared of other people
But now I am terrified of myself

I used to hide my skin from other's eyes
But now I hide my mind, and dress how I want

I used to never speak out
But now I want to make friends laugh

I used to beg for happiness
But now half accept it, along with a complaint

I used to crave love from anyone
But now I look at the bigger picture- that no one cares

I used to need acceptance
But now I could care less, as long as I smiled today

I used to depend on others for help or guidance
But now I know I only have myself

I used to annoy others with my O-C-D
But now all I do is annoy myself

Alayna Mae Dec 2016

Risks

I like to take risks
Danger arises in my presence
Not thinking as I do the unthinkable
I disobey for being risky
I jump the fence and lose trust in people
I travel my mind and go where it takes me
I look through my eyes deeply and follow
Having courage to break the rules
Being adventurous in a different level
Taking a breath and being brace
Better than a mistake than an what if
Telling myself "Here goes nothing"
Being flexible with believing you can do it
It could end up being an achievement

Alayna Mae Dec 2016

Recipe For Disaster

Melt any time you have left of your day
So you have none for her

Peel away trust and gain excuses

Scramble your words to the wrong direction

Age her with powerful insults

Brush off her innocence

Pour your anger on her always

Toss your cares about her feelings away

Rise your friends over her

Reduce your attention towards her soul

Soak up too much self confidence

Breaking her heart in her recipe for disaster

Alayna Mae Dec 2016

Depression and Anxiety

When brought to you it brings you undue stress
unwelcome guest that turns the soul to red
It comes upon you in your mind's address
a barrier with chains that have been bled

Suffocation that starts a loudly tick
you wrap the condition around your life
you rustle the sheets, and no sleep- lungs kick
and throw away chances-- sharp as a knife

One will claw you, and another will pull
an endless battle-- only you alone
mind is scattered, try to keep a handful
words can not escape, I miss my own tone

At my own hands I sink and fall and drown
surrendering to the trench that keeps me down

Alayna Mae Dec 2016

Love

This feeling has exploring bravery
Having musical veins playing for you heart
And tasting numbing joys
Aches and puzzles to discover

Having musical veins playing for your heart
Trying to overcome obsessions from the beginning
Aches and puzzles to discover
Desire to become one

Trying to overcome obsessions from the beginning
Seeping your soul- dancing as it mixes
Desire to become one
Gentle touch, but dangerous part take

Seeping your soul- dancing as it mixes
Relaxation of tones of voice
Gentle touch, but dangerous part take
Fading lectures you've always got pushed upon

Relaxation of tones of voice
Shakes of worriness of losing glow
Gentle touch, but dangerous part take
But love is an urge, so it is worth it

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