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911 · Feb 2013
I Want You in My Life. 10w
Ajay Feb 2013
I am sick
               of waiting
                                 for something good
to happen
910 · Jul 2012
My garden
Ajay Jul 2012
Planting
each seed
perfectly
to create, and foster
this beautiful bounty,
cultivating
each
individual plant,
stimulating each
to
reach
its potential,
enabling
these tiny seeds to
nourish me
as I
have nourished
them.
901 · Oct 2012
The Past is Now
Ajay Oct 2012
Forgive
biases,
backfiring
from
blurred vision,
racing
against time's
antithesis.
Ajay Oct 2013
Bleeding razor blades
cry beautiful, painful words
yelling for an end.
882 · Aug 2012
The Sky is the Limit
Ajay Aug 2012
When joy takes leave, friends betray,
fortune frowns as spring’s away,
When you are left to part
Alone to face the shattered heart,
You feel lost as never before,
But try once more and this time soar.
Wipe the tears and stop the crying;
The sky is the limit if you keep on trying.
866 · Sep 2012
Extirpating Vexation
Ajay Sep 2012
You, petrified,
overdosed on the anesthetic-
analgesic,
relapsing every atom,
in every molecule,
of every tissue,
in every muscle,
causing your body
to atrophy
leading to your death.
Forgive me
for not killing
you peacefully.
861 · Jul 2012
I love you.
Ajay Jul 2012
Three words
that
can alter the
outcome
and
morph an attitude
of an entire day
when received
producing an erruption of
intangibility
exhuded by the individual
receiving
the message
adding a voluminious effect
if the feeling is
now
mutual.
854 · Aug 2012
Apprehension
Ajay Aug 2012
I have no idea
where I am going to be
ten years down the line.
837 · Sep 2012
Mendacity
Ajay Sep 2012
Hopefully the lies
/                         \
you spread throughout your lifetime             you spread to your friends today
bite you in the ***                                          won't hurt tomorrow
810 · Aug 2012
My Apology
Ajay Aug 2012
I could not
bare
to look
at the pain
in her eyes,
which she averted,
from the
degradation
that stood before her.
I,
standing before her,
tried to
formulate
the words,
cautiously running
through the
ingredient list
of sincere
apologies,
that exist
in some
metaphysical representation
of what
I am trying
to profess.
805 · May 2012
Holding on
Ajay May 2012
Don't ever let go
Of me, even through hard times.
It always works out
795 · Oct 2014
Liquid Breathing
Ajay Oct 2014
Tweet, tweet,
feeling feet,
pinky toes interlocked--
sheets like magic carpets--
an escape with wings.
Air lifting up
from lungs,
unable to breathe,
greed, taking my last breath
just to feed--to eat--to need.
Pouring liquid fantasies,
like fingerprint dandelions,
ready to bloom ,
until erupting from cocoons,
padlocking us in cages,
draining our veins,
feeling our shame.
I forgot to heat your porridge
for long enough.
760 · Jul 2012
College
Ajay Jul 2012
I await college,
Anxiously, hoping to find,
What has been missing.
I start in less than a month!
755 · Jul 2012
Beside You
Ajay Jul 2012
You are the person
I want to wake up beside
to start off my day
742 · Aug 2012
Beauty
Ajay Aug 2012
Let us
come together,
not letting beauty
be
a curse, but
a blessing on the world,
helping those
who feel
lost and
unwanted, feel
beautiful.
728 · Sep 2013
My Vanishing Childhood
Ajay Sep 2013
I was only four
When you first left me alone;
I cried in my sleep.
725 · Oct 2014
Plastic Dolls
Ajay Oct 2014
Powdery flakes poisoned,
like orange juice on a sad day.
Stale snakes,
squeezing me: my throat.
Can’t breathe no more.
No alms, **** being poor.
Going 1-100 in less than 3 seconds,
rushes faster than sports cars.
Never ready for it,
but always ready for the next piece--
excitement and like little dolls
unable to express my emotions,
stoic…sick and stuck hazy phases
ready to re-phrase my life.
Time to get out of struggle-- done with strife
Knives felt too easy—I like--
challenges feel like sweet marmalades
710 · Aug 2012
Perspective
Ajay Aug 2012
Compliment people
so they feel as beautiful
as they truly are
707 · Jul 2012
The Lab
Ajay Jul 2012
Working in the lab
Calculating the mice weights
Logging in data
680 · Sep 2012
Your Life
Ajay Sep 2012
Tell me your story,
or let me read the pages.
/                              \
I love non-fiction.                 I love mysteries.
663 · Apr 2012
Patience
Ajay Apr 2012
I stand and you wait.
You pity as I debate
Over like or love.
658 · Sep 2012
Tabula Rasa
Ajay Sep 2012
Everything I have
experienced until now
has affected me.
Ajay Sep 2012
Just spill the ink.
Let it flow
from the active,
encapsulated, gray matter
behind your eyes,
from the bottom of your lips
tracing down
into your fingertips
and through your pen
and begin to think,
write, and form
your thoughts.
These meaningful
indubitable
expressions
are yours
to keep,
to perform,
to release,
in the way you feel
is true and real.
Find a way
to express your thought
and release your
mind
to create
sublime.
641 · Apr 2012
My Joy
Ajay Apr 2012
Found something I love
   /                    \
 Bringing joy and happiness            It is new and exciting.
Those I care about              Creating new life
618 · Apr 2012
A Friend
Ajay Apr 2012
I stand there waiting patiently,
Unwavering, hoping that you will enter.
Although you are not smiling, you are happy.
My mind begins to unfurl and I begin to see
The art in front of my face--the beautiful art
Can't compare to the joy you bring me daily.
I love school because of people like you.
Those who constantly reassure me
Those who bring me unending friendship
I love you.
Never will I forget the quirky attitude
Even though I am in an abyss
I do not blank in my mind as I day dream
If only more people were similar to you.
617 · Oct 2014
The Elusive
Ajay Oct 2014
Residual visuals
write again
lick the pen
forming words
venom skin
haunting chimes like holy bells
docking in the waters
flooded rhythms ribbed with sin
lavish favorites framed thin canals
rapture by the dragon's dust
feeding on the angel's wings
sleeping to sounds the zombie sings
616 · Apr 2012
My Misery
Ajay Apr 2012
You laugh at my pain
Crying, writhing to escape,
Signing life away
616 · Sep 2014
I Hate Straight Lines
Ajay Sep 2014
Crayola, brick red,
tearing open a new pack--
our favorite color.

Rebels, scraping, up,
indifferent to lines, down--
our favorite color.

Paper became ill fit
bodies became canvases--
our favorite color.

Our bodies, our tools,
crayons never left our side--
our favorite color.

She built a train track.
It only took seven years--
my favorite color.

"Follow the straight line"
Giving up on her sweet dream--
her favorite color.

I looked down at her
letting the brick red stick drop--
my favorite color.

It's in the casket,
but brick red forever is
our favorite color.
616 · Apr 2012
Remember
Ajay Apr 2012
I know it sounds cliche
Just try to brighten up your day
The slightest infraction from your schedule may spiral you down
From which you stood to the hard earthy ground
Being unable to get up, but you have me,
Your friends, your love, passions, interests...thoughts
I will carefully, soothingly lift you off the barren soil
Carrying you though my foot is broken. cracked,
My mind has morphed into desolate waste.
I will never leave you in the midst of danger
Rescuing you regardless of what happens to me.
I will be there, not just because I love you,
But because every entity in my being has the urge to Care,
Genuinely care for you
Standing there,
Breathing, inhale, exhale, coming to a realization,
Moments like this only bring us closer,
Strengthening our relationship
Creating unforgettable memories of joy
Even in the most irrefutably painful situations.
I will endure because of you,
So in stressful situations full of angst or worry
Never forget the most difficult task: remembering,
Remember I am and will be there for/with you
596 · May 2012
M. B.
Ajay May 2012
Waking drenched at night
Feeling at ease, so right
Mind so jostled, yet so clear,
Pitch black with no fear
You are on my mind
The thought of lil ones running behind
Dreaming of future days
Lost in class in a dreamy haze
Thinking only of you and I
And how will never deny
My love to you holds ever strong
Though our seperation may be long
You are the woman of Tennessee,
I hope someday we can be
Without the judgment of the eyes
Shall be happy even in dreary skies
Hold each other through thick and thin
Life is complete, when we begin
Hope and love will keep us as one
My passion for her will always burn
Those initials M. B.
Bring joy, excitement, life to me
I know she goes through so much pain
At my age some say i'm sweet others inane
Just know, M. B. I love you.
Always will stick with/by you
Passion for you ever growing
Unconditional love will be showing
And on that special day we meet
My life will be complete.
594 · Aug 2012
Not just "that girl"
Ajay Aug 2012
I love
the
sweet
effervescence
and untouched
happiness
bottled within
you.
You're not just "that girl"
but a woman
with an aura
that epitomizes
sweet effulgence.
568 · Jul 2012
Pain
Ajay Jul 2012
My heart will not stop
From experiencing pain
I cannot handle
560 · Sep 2012
Not Quite Ataraxia
Ajay Sep 2012
You may be taken,
but every time I see you
I can't help but hope.
534 · Sep 2012
"What is Art?"
Ajay Sep 2012
I hope our friendship,
/                    \
     which may be "replaceable,"           growing so beautifully,
            lasts for a lifetime.                      blossoms like a rose.
Thank you Alexandria.
493 · May 2012
Our Conversation
Ajay May 2012
By opening up
We explore the depths.
Through the intricate touch of the friendship
Our minds continue to expand
I Write as I converse with you
Bringing me the utmost joy
Feeling, barely noticing, the slightest growth of thought
Options arise as to whether we shall continue
Our discussion of what may seem like nothing
Intrigues me more, allowing myself to grow
Expressing myself in various ways
However you have yet to learn why I am
Why am I, who I am?
Continuing the relaxed mind battle
Fighting over what is true
My friends, you, my friend, continue to push me
Motivating me to be the best I can be
Encouraging free expression, disregarding the absurdity.
I come to my senses and realize
You have only bettered me through our deliberate thought
As the hour glass of time slowly drops the delicate pieces of sand,
I want to thank you before my time, our time is up
For everything, even the smallest of actions
You have helped me be me.
I shall always remember you have made me think
I wish I could think of a word other than deep
But that is exactly how you have made me think—“deep[ly]”
However my mind has exhausted and I only hope
Assured and aspired to have another “deep" conversation
492 · May 2012
Our Relationship
Ajay May 2012
A relationship,
One that looks like something, but
Wish was another
490 · May 2012
My Past
Ajay May 2012
Unforgettable,
My past, my mistakes, make me--
The person I am
488 · May 2012
Writing
Ajay May 2012
Fastidiously
Writing every thought I have
Until I lack ink
487 · Jul 2012
Something More
Ajay Jul 2012
Patiently waiting,
That first gaze of your body,
Wanting something more.
482 · Apr 2012
My Letter to You
Ajay Apr 2012
You ride on the bus.
Finally, looking at home,
Eagerly for mail.
477 · Aug 2012
What If
Ajay Aug 2012
What if
you
knew
the real
me?
What would
you
think?
How would
you
feel?
Would we
still
be
friends?
Maybe
that is why
I'm so
reserved
in the ample space
within
my
mind.
455 · May 2012
Funny Little Moments
Ajay May 2012
Constantly laughing,
At the funny parts of life,
With my closest friends.
428 · May 2012
Ask Me Why
Ajay May 2012
My life may seem drab;
However, there are reasons.
Ask me and find out.
406 · Oct 2014
Don't Let it be the End
Ajay Oct 2014
Drink the gasoline.
Gag. Rub rest over body.
Step three: light the match.
381 · May 2012
Your Magical Touch
Ajay May 2012
Holding your soft hand
Through the duration of class
Helps me get through pain
150 · Dec 2022
Unforgotten
Ajay Dec 2022
Sweet ink,
lost you in doubt
Darkening corners
Scared and trapped
Find me
Please, find me
I need you to survive
My outlet, my energy
Just a small fuse
Waiting to be nurtured
I’ll bring you back to life

— The End —