Crisp clean beats
in my speakers
resonate
I hold sacred
these hours to myself

I don’t feel like myself
when it rains like this
I get caught up
and locked up
in all that I miss

How can something pass by
so slow
yet so quick
I try to hold on but
it slides through so slick

I’ll never be younger
than I am in this instant
Dissonance resonates
somewhere deep in my memory bank
I assure you
insurance won’t protect you
from this

What it means to grow old
I can’t say
but it shakes me
down deep to the core
I feel broken and empty
when I think of the girl
who once dreamt
bigger
than life itself

I’m not as young as I once was
in stature or in soul
Tiny creases line my eyes
from time which takes its toll

Acne scars and freckles
sprinkle skin which once was smooth
But to go back to a decade past
is not something I would choose

The years have made me wiser
Made me kinder
Made me strong
Confidence is not in age
but instead an inner song

I can’t decide
if I’m comforted by the fact
that every thought  
I’ve ever had
has probably been had
before

And I don’t know
which is worse
That we are, perhaps
incredibly,
undeniably
not special at all
Or that we incredibly,
undeniably
are

A flower
is not ashamed
that she came
from the dirt
But she never diverts
to grow back there

No doubt
yet no reason
No regrets
as she reaches
always onward
and upward
into the light

If it's the social that ails you
It's us who have failed you
The elitist holy grail
that we sipped, sits
inhales you

Rejected
We erected
this beast from the ground
Monuments replace common sense
We flip upside down
for a Followback
Double-Tap
Hashtag
and Name Grab
Will we ever

STOP

this fast train in its tracks?
This beautiful lie
This brilliant illusion
that you'll never attain
because it does not exist