Myla and Bryson
I never would have named him Bryson anyway
Imagined them playful, smiling, loving
an essence of us
Imagined green grass and a fence to keep
The dog in
Imagined late nights, tv is the only light, as we cuddle
Shining on our family
Happiness
But there is no Myla or Bryson
Nobody’s playful, smiling, loving
There is no dog
There is no family

Bargaining
You changed, I changed
the situation changed
For good or for bad?
Kneeling, begging
God
Make the pain stop
guide him
guide me

I imagine your mind is drifting away
You’re only in the next room, the same body I know
I love you when our bodies were close
Were farther than we’ve ever been
The same body but a different perspective
You look different

Confusion anger prying impatience
It’s all gasoline for a fire
A fire is only as dangerous as you allow it to be
I can feel heat radiating from your body
Eye to eye, pounding hearts,
I know it’s not just me

Your shoes, your Xbox, what’s the most value?
I want to destroy what you love the most
Because you destroyed what I love the most
The real problem
For both of us
is what we love the most

Deep breath, exhale
And the forces of nature will listen
Walking and the worlds  behind me
Like wind is pushing so I can come through
Kindness, confidence, love
It’s going to be okay

Music in the background
Conversations near by
My mind is occupied
But is it really?
I’m hurting and nobody knows
This is what I’m suppose to do
the idea sounds good
This is what I’m suppose to do
I’ll have another