Between going and staying the day wavers,
in love with its own transparency.

The circular afternoon is now a bay
where the world in stillness rocks.

All is visible and all elusive,
all is near and can't be touched.

Paper, book, pencil, glass,
rest in the shade of their names.

Time throbbing in my temples repeats
the same unchanging syllable of blood.

The light turns the indifferent wall
into a ghostly theater of reflections.

I find myself in the middle of an eye,
watching myself in its blank stare.

The moment scatters. Motionless,
I stay and go: I am a pause.

(She Speaks.)


I MEANT to be so strong and true!
The world may smile and question, When?
But what I might have been to you
I cannot be to other men.
Just one in twenty to the rest,
And all in all to you alone, -
This was my dream; perchance 'tis best
That this, like other dreams, is flown.


For you I should have been so kind,
So prompt my spirit to control,
To win fresh vigor for my mind,
And purer beauties for my soul;
Beneath your eye I might have grown
To that divine, ideal height,
Which, mating wholly with your own,
Our equal spirits should unite.

I can't be so sure
but I've got my reasons too
so it's rather this way
that a day will come..
run away, run away
keep your sharp eye
and don't look back
run away, run away
as fast as you can
green lights on
I've waited a lifetime
to press forward
and hurry up..
run away, run away
and don't look back
run away, run away
lost time life..

This is just to say,
I am sorry for lying.
I know you were expecting me to tell the truth
About falling in love with you but
I didn't fall

Or scrape my skin loose,
Blood smearing on the unforgiving pavement.
Curdling, browning, settling
On the pavement.

I am sorry for skinning my knee.
I know you wanted me
To walk you to the park
But I can't, my knee is dying.

I am sorry for not kissing your cheek
With my dry, chapped lips;
I am sorry you don't notice me falling
And flaking
Like dandruff on the shoulders of a nervous
Office intern.

I am sorry for not being sad when you left,
And for not noticing the tear on your face
Like crimson
Reflecting the lack of a glint in my eye.

LET GO



I’ve learnt about Love by letting go
To accept the justice of fate
Know loss without hate
For the Love that I searched for
is the Love that I know
Now ‘I’ can grow
beyond limitations previously set
‘I’ knows I'm not there yet -
but I'm going
Growing
Not slowing
The rate is increasing
relative to my releasing
this fear projected fleecing

I've learnt about Fear by letting go
To look at things that scared me
Made me slave instead of free
Locked me in my carbon steel cage
till I willed to turn the page
to see what's on the other side
Why we've lived
Why we've died
What they said
How they lied
and kept a candle burning
to keep us from turning
to see the real
Light of Love
from Within
as Above.

Sometimes,
I try to escape you.
Whether in my thoughts;
or in my day.
I have become spectacular at blocking out
the memories.
But sometimes,
I try to escape you.
When I see the curve of your cheek
lit in the soft moon light
and all I want to do is reach out and cup my hand on your face;
I try to escape you.
When I close my eyes with you right next to me;
and I dream of interlacing my fingers with yours,
my head on your chest.
When I can hear the actual sound of your heartbeat being imitated in my sleep;
and I wake up and wonder.. hope.. That I wasn't dreaming;
too afraid to ask in fear of being chastised for wanting you..
I try to escape you.
And in the morning, I prepare myself to go home.
Even though I know I'll miss you
and only think of you when I'm there.
But then you ask me to stay one more night
and I can't say no to your beautiful green eyes
or your bright smile.
I try to escape you.
But I can't.
**My love.

Compounded complexity
flexible freedom.
This world we live in...
hold your tongue
let me speak
let me creep
on our country's beliefs.
Ideologies invented by power,
to tell us when to cower,
when to talk
how to walk.
I have a mouth I refuse to shut
My words can be daggers
confident in consequence,
and hence,
I write these rhymes
to challenge your mind.
Look at your empty beliefs
in policies with no relief.
They seize your right
to fight,
stand up and be proud of who you've become.
Who are they to judge
when they smudge equality
and slash justice,
twist the meaning.
The poor stay poor
the rich get richer.
Kids grow up in the gutters
and the government mutters,
"we tried our best,
done all we can."
When the money is spent
in genocide
of those on "the other side"
unaware civilians
mass ****** is our forte
across the ocean
or in our streets,
But you aren't exempt,
blame yourself,
stand up and scream.
I want to put the fight in your eyes,
take off your mask of false certainties.
You think you know how this world works
instead you should step back
and see what you're worth.

Betrayal
in her eyes
as truth settles in
to watch the show.
I try for calm,
but poison butterflies
grow claws
and rip my words
to shreds.
I parry with Honesty,
taking hits so sudden
my breath has no choice but to retreat,
wondering why Justice played
her Champion
so late.
I couldn't see
what I had destroyed at the time.
Or perhaps
I wouldn't look
Consequence in the eye.
Now
Here it all is.
It stares me down.
I can't watch
the emotions dance
through her mind.
Defeat is imminent
so I accept
the fate of my secrets
because finally
I can see
**what I've done.