You may never understand me no-matter what language I said it or what language I write it, but am OK with that, because I have learned to deal with it and accept it.

You gave me a reason to hate you, but that reason did not work on me.

if only we could stop the fears
and start doing what we were call to do
start living life as it is
doing the things we can
do best and start
sharing the love Jesus left for us
start living our dreams
without having not to please no one
but ourselves
share our stories and listen
to our neighbors stories
having not to always drink
from the tap
but also from the riverbank
allowing ourselves to laugh
every night when go to bed
and every morning when we wake up
the world belongs to all of us
so lets call it our universe
always live with peace
even without law enforcement
always forgive even though
not forgiven yet
share our gifts without judgments
learn to use our talents
for the right reasons and purpose
stop social networking via internet
and start social networking via reality
stop cheating our way through life
and start living our values and beliefs
stop hiding behind the curtain of fears
and be the first to scream out for change.

It takes more than just you-tube inspirational videos to start living sincerely
and more than just motivational quotes to start practicing our good thoughts
more than just good friends to start being one
more than just don'ts and dos from parents  to really start understating and learning
more than just our failures  and mistakes to start making the right choices
commitments, courage, faith, hope, willingness, wisdom, ambitions, goals, love.....is something that we have to cultivate on our own
giving up is decision only made when we don't have courage or when we lose hope
emptiness is a feeling only comes when we don't have faith or belief of our own
failure only conquers when we stop trying
fears only take over when we let them take over our deep thoughts
loneliness only takes over when we allow ourselves to become the enemy of our enemies
ambitions only come when we dare to dream no-matter the age
success only happens when we act and commit till the end.

some times i convince myself that my dreams about you are fading but the deadly truth shows up the following morning. i can some times wake up in the middle of the nights just to spare you some thoughts in my mind and some space in my heart, but when morning comes again i force myself to live in a denial just so i could get through the delight when my eyes are open. my nights were my only hope to escape, but then occasionally you started to flood my mind. i have learned to convince myself that i cold not be the only one this wide wild world, so i try to stay strong. i have fallen again and again for you and it hurts you have never considered catching me once. like you have started a story for me but you don't want to be part of the story.

sometimes my pen does not truly draw out my words, if i could write my words with my mind, they wouldn't fit in my page.

oh no this is love poem
oh no this too private
oh no this depressing
oh no this is my enemy's
oh no this is too judgmental
oh no this is embarrassing
oh no this does not make sense
oh no this is about my break
i don't know which one
i have lots of them
i just don't know which one to show you
may be if you wait till tomorrow
then i might have something by then for you.