5 years since
you told me you loved me

5 years since
you gave me a hug

5 years since
we played checkers with your medicine

5 years since
you got a cold that seemed to be there for months

5 years since
my mum told me that you had ALS

5 years since
since i cried about you being sick

5 years since
I cried myself to sleep

5 years since
mum rushed to the nursing home

5 years since
i hugged your limp body in a ******* box

5 years since
i put the stuffed animal i made you lay in the box in case you got scared

5 years since
i cried as they lowered you into the grave

5 years since
I was put into therepy for depression

5 years since
I cried my eyes out at your grave stone

5 years since
I lost one of the best friends I've ever had

she forgot to write a poem that day,
and the day next
and the day next,
she forgot to write a poem that week,
and the week next
and the week next,
she forgot to write a poem that month,
and soon forgot that she had forgotten to write a poem,
she forgot all about words that rhymed
and titles
and tags
she forgot to write poems,
because she forgot to be sad.

Welcome
Welcome to the home of the mentally ill
Where you are not only forced to get better but to do it with a smile
Welcome to the home of the beautifully insane
Where the differences are ****** into a vacuum and stored away from you
Welcome to the place with big doors and locked bathrooms
Where even your shoelaces are considered a weapon
Welcome to your home for the next week
Where darkness and monsters lurk around each corner
Welcome to a group of friends you'll love more than anyone
Where those people are the only ones helping you
Welcome to the Mental Hospital
Hope you're planning to *stay

Yesterday you said not another day
Today you say you meant it
Tomorrow you think well maybe its not that bad

With every throwback of my head I felt the artificial happiness circulating
The smiles that were etched on my face
The laughs that were played on a machine instead of my lips
Those dull eyes must've been a tell tale
Yet
No one noticed those eyes lacking sparkle
No one noticed when those smiles became small then extremely large as if by magic
No one noticed when those laughs became plastic
But
Then again
No one noticed
When those smiles became real
When those laughs became songs
When those eyes started to twinkle