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Feb 2014 · 844
Shelter
Adriana Feb 2014
I find shelter in hiding my feelings.
I hate opening myself up,
because then I feel vulnerable....like you'll take advantage of me.
Or you'll reject me,
or that things just won't be the same. But I'm willing to risk it.
I want to be completely honest with you, I want you to know how I feel.
And I am willing to risk everything like  to make you understand
that you mean everything to me, and that my feelings for you are real.
Jan 2014 · 408
You don't want me.
Adriana Jan 2014
You don't want me,
but you don't want me with anyone else.
You only want me there when it's convenient for you, when everyone else has left.
I don't get it.
Do I need to be lonely and miserable for you to be happy?




a.h
Jul 2013 · 537
Scars
Adriana Jul 2013
Today she's turning 16.
Everyone's singing, but she cant seem to smile.
She wonders if anyone realizes, that behind her long sleeves,
are her scars.
Shame. Regret. Hurt. No one should have to feel this way.
She felt *****. Disgusted. Used.
Something precious had been ripped from her.
No one should have to deal with the pain she went through,
that horrible night.
The pain and suffering still lurked in her head as she dreamed at night.
It isn't forgotten, and never will be.
Jul 2013 · 813
Pretending
Adriana Jul 2013
When you're young, you have no care in the world.
You run wild and free.
Your parents would say "Always be yourself."
You think, "How could I be anyone else?"
Then you grow up and see, sometimes it's hard to be yourself,
in a world where people are pretending all the time.
Pretending to be someone that they're not, just to fit in.
Then suddenly, you change the way you dress, the people who hang out with.
They tell you to lose weight, and they told you the quickest way to do this.
You find yourself sitting on the bathroom floor, crying. Thinking to yourself:
*Who am I?
Jul 2013 · 1.4k
This isn't Love
Adriana Jul 2013
This isn't love.*
I know what love is, I've seen it.
Love doesn't hurt. It wouldn't make me feel like this.
No, this isn't love.
I honestly don't know what this is.
You continue to hurt me, over and over again.
You're words aren't true.
And I'm beginning to think, that maybe,
I'm better off without you.
Jul 2013 · 438
Weights
Adriana Jul 2013
You're like a magnet.
No matter how hard I try to stay away,
I always come back to you.
There's something about you, but I'm not quite sure what.
Your words are like weights,
holding me down.
And Im not sure if I can get back up.
Jul 2013 · 1.0k
Honest
Adriana Jul 2013
All I want is for you to be honest.
Be honest with yourself.
Be honest with me.
It's ok to need help.
You're not alone in this.
I'm with you.
Always.
Jul 2013 · 953
To The Girls (part 2)
Adriana Jul 2013
Acting desperate for attention is not attractive. Not respecting yourself for attention is not attractive.
Insecure people want attention, secure people demand respect.
Insecure people brag and show off, secure people are humble.
Insecure people PRETEND to be perfect, secure people embrace their flaws.
There's beauty in confidence, but confidence isn't about showing off what you've got,
its more about being secure in what you lack.
Jul 2013 · 284
To The Girls... (part 1)
Adriana Jul 2013
Let someone want you instead of acting like you need them all the time.
Let someone meet your standards instead of lowering yours to meet theirs.
Don't allow your loneliness to make you think that every smile someone gives you means they want you.
Stop making yourself so available.
There's nothing special about being easy access, so stop advertising yourself as a wholesale when your value should be something that can't be bought.
Jul 2013 · 856
I dont understand
Adriana Jul 2013
I never understood why people determine who they're friends with based on looks.
It's stupid and shallow.
Tall, short, fat, skinny, long hair, short hair, blonde, brunette, blue eyes, green eyes, it shouldn't matter.
None of it matters.
Jul 2013 · 620
Society
Adriana Jul 2013
I don't think parents understand how hard it is to be a teenager.
School, sports, work, chores...and then we've got society.
Society teaching us to act or look a certain way,
we have to be this certain size, have this hairstyle,
have these types of clothes, hang out with these certain people.
And if we don't do all of these things, that we're not good enough.
It's not easy growing up in a world like this.
Parents say they understand, but they don't.
They never will.
Jul 2013 · 536
Free
Adriana Jul 2013
You kept me in ******* for so long.
And It was weird, because I hated you,
but at the same time, I didn't want to let you go.
But now I realize, you aren't worth it anymore.
I know Im better off without you.
I'm free.
Jul 2013 · 285
You are
Adriana Jul 2013
Forget what anyone says.
You are beautiful,
You are loved,
You are wanted.
Jul 2013 · 459
Butterflies
Adriana Jul 2013
I wish I could tell you everything I was feeling.
I wish I could let you know I get butterflies whenever I think about you.
That I love every little detail about you.
Your freckles, your crooked smile, your laugh, the way you hug me when you know I've had a bad day,
I wish I could tell you all these things.
But I cant, because your with her now.
She gets to see your freckles and crooked smile.
She gets to hear your laugh, and feel your hugs.

a.h
Jul 2013 · 922
Used
Adriana Jul 2013
You used me.
You lied to me.
You made me feel special, but now you make me feel sick.
You hurt me.
And how dare you ask me, "What's wrong?"
You know exactly what you did. It's what you do to every other girl.
Make them feel important, say all these sweet things to them.
Then, when the girl gets attached, you just act like nothing ever happened.
Like all the 2:00 am conversations meant nothing.
You made me feel empty.

a.h

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