Adele heyes

Adele heyes Feb 2018

New York

As we walking through the streets of New York,
I looked up I could see the big bright white snow flakes falling down apon me.
I could feel the cold fresh snow on my skin in the ice crisp air.
I could hear the crunch as people was taking foot steps in the thick layer of snow around me.
I touched the soft cold crisp layer of snow which was lay upon the bright yellow taxis all parked all along the streets of New York,
I could smell nothing. I could sense the air was fresh.

This was my birthday present right? What a lie you told.
Cruel & evil.
How could you let a fifthteen year old girl believe this?
To wake up on her birthday and ruin it.
Sick women you are.

Adele heyes Feb 2018

I lost you.

You wasn't born,

I heard your heartbeat,
I felt your little kicks.
I felt the unconditional love for you.

I seen your tiny hands,
I seen your tiny feet.
I seen your little button nose.

I dreamt about holding you.
I dreamt about sat up late at night feeding you.
I dreamt about how you would say your first word.
I dreamt about our little family.

It all got taken away all very soon.
I can't un-see what I seen.
I can't un-hear what I heard.
I can't un-feel what I felt.
I can't un-dream what I dreamt.

I love you always.

Adele heyes Feb 2018

Have you? I have.

Have you ever felt the feeling of love?
The one you can't describe.
The feeling that you would do anything for them.
The feeling of upsetting them kills you inside.
The feeling of being away from them for minute is like a life time.
The feeling of caring so much for them you don't care for your self anymore.

The moment your not around them you crave,
There love
There affection
There attention
There sense
There heart beat.

When all you physically & emotionally want is them?

I Have

Adele heyes Feb 2018

Who cares

I'm a lover,
Not a fighter,
Definitely not a writer.

These are words,
They have meanings.
Put them together,
They have messages.

I don't get your words,
You don't get mine.

I remember yours.
You remember mine.

Nobody needs to make sense of your words.
Many will.

No matter what you feel,
No matter what you think,
Weather he understands it,
Weather she doesn't,
Write it down,
Rip it up,
Scribble it out,
Post it about.
Who cares?
Just get it out.

Express your self,
Express your words.

Love your thoughts
Love your feelings.
Most of all
Love your self.

Adele heyes Feb 2018

Him

You want it all your way,
Never mine.
You can't sit & talk.
You fight & run away.
Always about what's best for your child,
Never mine.
We're all one,
Not to you though.
Am I fighting a losing battle?
Seems it.
2 years on..
Nothing changes.
Think your laugh & smile can get you everything.
Not anymore.

Adele heyes Feb 2018

Embrace

Not everybody understands.
Not everybody cares.
Some think your weak
Some think your strong
Not many believes what your going through.
Not many wants to believe what your going through.
It's not up to everybody else.
It's all about your own thoughts & feelings.
Don't let others tell you how your feeling or how you should feel.
Believe in your own emotions & embrace them.
One day you may feel nothing.

Adele heyes Feb 2018

Goodnight world.

All the love you gave,
All the power you made.
You manipulated me in a strange sort of way.
Why do I feel so strong for the person that ruined my life?
You've kept me as a prisoner in my own mind since I was 13 years of age.
I should of known better than to believe you.
I still hold on to
your evil nasty untrue words.
You groomed me & don't regret it.
I always hoped I'd of found you & got my answers.
Now I hope your lay 6ft under, trapped in your own soul not being able to rest.
Now it's time to say goodnight to the world and finally get my peace.