It's an unhealthy obsession,
you're my addiction not yet my possession.

Inflicted with your smile and there's no hesitation. 
What I feel is what it is,
you may not understand but I want you to see where is it that I stand. 

I see you out of glimpses but you don't look back.
Aspiring to be your ideal still having no real appeal. 

Wanting to be noticed by your gaze
but I'm just another novice in a maze.

She's expert mode in this game.
you're wrapped around her finger
and I have no real aim.

Bullseye, when will I ever get there?
Because with her, 
I can never compare.

Quit this childish play
Help me move on to put to an end
This silly little game we played

Today,
I miss you.
I miss our late night talks and our afternoon walks.
I miss your perfect green eyes and your stupid lies.

I miss your warmth.
When you'd hold me tight on a wintery night.
When you'd put my hands in yours,
and looked into my eyes.

When laying down in silence was enough for us.
When I, and only I was enough.

Even when it doesn't look like it,
know I miss you.

I miss you today and I'll miss you tomorrow.

There used to be a sparkle in your eyes
every time we talked.
You used to look at the ground and smile
because you didn't want me too see you blush.
You used to praise me to your friends,
brag and show me off to the world.

What happened to that guy?

You used to say I was perfect.
That you loved everything about me,
without saying "I love you."

That was good, because sometimes I get scared.
Scared I get too attached, that things move fast.
But it was my fault.
I gave in and it changed you.

I gave you what you wanted,
and no longer was I perfect.
You got what you wanted
and you just left.

You made me fall for you.
Your words, your actions
everything was carefully orchestrated.

And now that you're back I can't deny you.
You hurt me but I'm still standing.

My friends think I'm insane
but I can't help myself.

I gave in again.
Even after you said it was a test.

But I'm still here,
trying to stand up once again.