Time and time again
I find myself
Waiting with anticipation
For the same lies
To roll so gracefully
Off of your tongue.
I linger on every word
In hope
That beneath
All of the misconceptions,
There is truth.

Higher and higher
I can float away,
Dismiss the struggles
Forget the pain.

I can be taken somewhere
Where I am breathless and light.
Shed the bitterness
And finally feel right.

The brittle bones of mine
Will eventually brake,
But it is no matter
Right now I'm awake.

These weak knees
And battered knuckles
Cannot take anymore.
The bruises speak for themselves
And the scars have their stories.
Yet,
After all this time
I cannot bring myself to end
This beautiful abuse.

I wish I could save you.
I want to reach my hand
Into your heaped up heart
And scrub out
All of the burdens and
Broken things.
I wish to see you smile
So deeply
That the joy in your soul
Peeks through
The corners of your mouth.
I dream of seeing you
So delighted in the life you live
That your eyes can tell the story
Of your first love.
I strive for all of these things
To make you truly happy,
Even if I am not the reason.