1716

Death is like the insect
Menacing the tree,
Competent to **** it,
But decoyed may be.

Bait it with the balsam,
Seek it with the saw,
Baffle, if it cost you
Everything you are.

Then, if it have burrowed
Out of reach of skill—
Wring the tree and leave it,
’Tis the vermin’s will.

Some women marry houses.
It's another kind of skin; it has a heart,
a mouth, a liver and bowel movements.
The walls are permanent and pink.
See how she sits on her knees all day,
faithfully washing herself down.
Men enter by force, drawn back like Jonah
into their fleshy mothers.
A woman is her mother.
That's the main thing.

I'm sitting down in the mirror faced with reality
I cant believe I have your mark on my face its brutality
I wonder what made you flip yell and scream
Every time you get jealous you cause a scene
Whether I'm in the way or I dress like a tease
You got me begging you to stop; I'm on my knees
I just don't know how I can love a man
Who stays catching a case
resorts to violence and places his hands on my face
Is this my fate?
Or maybe I'm scared to go
Cause you're the type of man that can't respect a NO
You say you love me, that it was your bad
but I think domestic love is the only thing you ever had..

I'm laying in my tub
full of bubbles and bath salt,
relaxing as the music plays,
I'm letting my mind drift away,
I need to forget.
Regain what's left of me,
My sanity's
in question
and
I know your wondering,
Guessing
did You just get the best of me.
(?)
You had all of me
and
now what's left of me is to be here in this world,
without a life line.
I will survive yet that's all I'll be doing  is surviving,
not even really living.
Going day by day without letting my emotions show,
I rather be a hollow shell,
and
As my life goes on- on and my story  for "Tales",
You'll hear She was a good woman
She put everything into her kids,
She was
copacetic and had so much  love to give,
She was like her Grand mama,
Un be knowing to anyone,
When You left-  I died inside.
I carried on like nothing was wrong,
I acted like
everything was cool,
laughing smiling too,
Yeah- you know how I do,
But
no one notice the light that died in my eyes,
The sparkle that went out
when you took my heart away,
No one will see my pain because,
I'll play brave and put on my poker face,
I'll hang out with friends
and
pretend.
Answer back even when
I don't want to be in their mix.
Even when
I'm asked question's
I'll give all the right answers.
While I cry mentally inside.
I'll go out and shake my *** get another's number
knowing I'll never call.
I'll work my *** off for a little while longer,
reinvent myself and try to some how become stronger,
over come you and this creeping pain you left me feelin,
This ache  you've caused me ....,
I'm laying in my tub,
Bubble bath all around me & bath salt too.
The waters over flowing.
My mind draws a blank
and
the pill bottle's now empty-
falls outta my hand.
I was thinking,
I could live with out you...,
That was until the pills
Kicked In!
Always Me Ayeshah

She turns,
He's there,
She speaks,
He stares,
Her eyes,
His lips,
She stands,
He sits,
She smiles,
He grins,
She walks,
He wins,
They hug,
They kiss,
What love
is this?