i can no longer wait.

i have stood in the cold
for a year,
waiting for your promises
to show up.
I thought they would come
******* in beautiful ribbons
and bows, but they
never showed.
"They'll be here," you promised.
"Any day now.."
but we're out of time,
my dear.
I can no longer wait
for the love you promised to give me.
Not for love that speaks,
but never acts.
Not for love that stirs and yawns,
but never stands and soars.
I can no longer wait.
Not for someone who hands me
an empty promise everyday
as he walks through the door,
promising the love will
surely be there tomorrow.

she pulled my arm across
the center console,
examining it.
trying to find an entrance
to that beautiful unseen interstate
of veins that ran through my body.

about five seconds after the last
drop hit my veins,
my head was spinning.
my whole body in ecstasy.

"this is what we came for,"
I said.
"this is what we pay for."

i heard once,
that when you give
your heart away to
someone, but
they don't want it,
you can never get
it back.

it's such
a terrific secret,
come a little closer
and i might just
out line it for you

how do you explain
that feeling that only
another human being
can give you.

that inconceivable,
intoxicating, volatile
feeling that some people
refer to as love but
that word doesn't accurately
depict just how
that unseen entity can
make you the happiest
and most miserable person
in the world all at one
time.

no word or any number
of words could spell out just
exactly how this feeling works,
but here's something i can tell you,
that loves is like a flame,
and once someone ignites
that feeling,
it spreads like wild fire
and it won't stop until
it consumes its host entirely.

i hate how you
do this
i hate how i
allow your constant
walking in and out
of my life
and whenever you get
around to
apologizing to me for
breaking my heart again,
which you will
undoubtly do,
i just forgive you
like i can't imagine
ever not accepting an
apology i no longer need
to hear but you still
say it so you can feel better
but it doesn't make me
feel better
because you talk
better but you
don't act better

do you ever look around
and realize it's all over.
it's all gone.
there's nothing here
anymore.

nothing in this town
is keeping me here
because you're gone and
it's so cold here and
nothing sparkles
like it did when you
were with me.

you've gone away
without me.
i never asked you to
stay, and you never asked
me to wait, so i'm
going to leave too.

i can't stay here.
i've seen what happens
to people when they do.