One Boy
One Girl.

One healed heart.
One never been touched.

One new friend.
One new hoping-to-be-his-new-girlfriend.

One with a crush.
One in Love.

One with an interest.
One with none.

One in Love.
One already there.

One out of it.
One who still cares.

One with another.
One without.

One forgetting about her.
One can't live without him.

One maybe committing a sin.
One wishing to begin.

One losing interest.
One losing her appeal.

One not knowing how he feels.
One wanting to tell him everything.

One not caring;
One who wants to be daring.

One ignoring,
One's eyes full of tears.

One happy.
One will be sad for years.

I remember;

The way we used to talk.
The promises you made.
The sweet things you said,
That I'll always cherish.

I remember;
The cute crush you had
On a girl like me.

I remember;
The cute crush I had
On a boy like you.

I remember;
How you wanted to be with me,
And how you wanted to show me off
Because I was, "Your girl."

I remember;
How much you said you loved me,
How you said you would never leave me,
And how you said you'd never stop loving me.

I remember;
How you left me,
How you went on to her,
And how you broke your promises.

I remember;
The tears that fell,
The words that were said
And the apologies that were thrown around.

I remember,
My miserable weeks;
Feeling sad and alone
Because I had lost you,
And you wouldn't come back to me;
You wouldn't return my love.

But now I sit here and remember;
The things you said last night;
Those words in those texts.
You want me;
I want you;

I sit here and re-read those words in my head.
I said we both wanted each other
And you agreed.
So why you're still with her
Is a mystery to me.

I sit here and remember,
Those old nervous feelings on when we first met,
And I sit here and re-live them.

These nervous feelings of possibly sharing a kiss.

But now I sit here and think,
*It's more than sharing a kiss, that's making me nervous.

People would tell me,
You were just another crush.

People would tell me,
You weren't worth my time;
You weren't worth my tears.

People would tell me,
You were just like any other boy;
A ****.

People would tell me,
"He's ugly anyways."

People would tell me,
You never cared

People would tell me,
You lie to me.

People would tell me,
You're never coming back to me;
To give up hope.

But you know what I tell myself?

I tell myself,
I'm in love.

I tell myself,
You were worth every minute, every second
And every tear.

I tell myself,
You're not like any boy I've ever met;
You're amazing.

I tell myself,
You're the most adorable and really cute boy I've ever seen.

I tell myself,
What we've been through,
Has been too much to make me, "Just-another-girl."

I tell myself;
You have no reason to lie to me.

I tell myself,
Yes, perhaps you never will return,
But I'm allowed to hope, aren't I?

I tell myself,
Everything
That I believe
To be the truth.

Our look of Innocence
Could be true
But we both want so much more
From each other

We never even stole one kiss,
But I can see more being
Stolen
In the future.
My innocence;
Your virtues.
Could they be gone,
So soon?

I can't be, "Just friends."
With you.
I don't think you could be with me
Either.

For me,
It's out of
Love.

For you,
Could it be out of
Lust?

I could know,
If you stole
More than just
My Heart.

Why aren’t your eyes--- there?
In two places--- where water should be?
Moldy residue--- absence of vision, tears
From those bullet holes--- you ought to see--- your own ambivalence
Fall down my cheek
Terrifying--- Me, with nothing for both us
Automaton, my weakness
Intellect, disease
You’re my body
Cage
You're my spirit
Doubt
Justice and horror--- within, without