You let me see the ache in my lover's cheeks;
the pride in my father's smile;
the utter beauty of a sundown against falling snow - Eyes I love you.
 
But eyes why do you let me perceive so much I wonder. 
 
The image of my lover's back;
the resentment in my father's smirk;
the rain washing all the beauty to ash - I can't stand it eyes.
 
The amazement of seeing wonders is clouded by the never-ending sorrows that keep replaying themselves all around my shoulder blades like devils in dust scorning and crying
           Screaming out every failure my trembling hands have ever pounded into friends and family only wanting me to stay away from the river, and the oblivion awaiting there.
 
Eyes, I am sorry.
 
I know you can't act like a father to a premature child and build bubbles of air all around me.
I know that love fades and fathers' hate and snow disappears at the first ray of spring. But eyes when you turn around and let me see the devil within you make me detest myself. I'm not strong enough to face the music I've made or the bridges I've left in flames -  
               I'm not even strong enough to face myself.
 
That's why I ask of you eyes, to please leave me be for a while.
I just need some time to learn to cope with the devil being alive.
 
I'll call for you when enough sunsets have passed and I've learned to live with my own name.
 
When I've learned to look my mistakes in the eye.
 
When I've learned to love myself.

Sitting
on the
edge of
my window
smoking and
watching the
light
of
my
reading lamp
on
the
woven
elephants
hanging
beaded
above
my
bed
-
I thought
you
were
singing
in
your
room,
but
realized it's just
Yerushalayim
that
hums
at
night.
Sing me to sleep, Holy city -
center of the universe,
light of my life.

The moon is shining cold and bright
The stream reflecting all its light.
Just lying here you and I
Gazing up into the sky.
My heart is beating fierce and fast
Hope this moment will always last.
Desperately craving a single kiss
But unable to interrupt the bliss.
We lie together until the dawn,
Til' life beckons us to carry on.
But that shall only be the start
Of loves connection in my heart.