How does it feel to get lost in my head?
Planting flowers for the long past dead,
They say they know what it tastes like,
But they couldn't learn to like you if they tried.

Another down,
I'm feeling it this time.
Nearly too numb to feel you,
But too numb to breathe.

This static love is killing me,
Like star crossed lovers, and Destiny.

Like a knife,
You can't cut too deep.

Do you know what it's like?
To feel too numb, to feel too numb to feel?
These lines leave me nothing,
But your face again.

Heaven seems a long dead star,
Hell is just another friend.
Sometimes I wonder,
If I'll ever see this end.

I'm nearly too numb to feel you,
Already too numb to breathe.
But another pill is nothing like,
The pain you've achieved.

Well the night can't get much darker,
It's an hour before the dawn.
I can't stop thinking about you,
Now that you're so long gone.

A thousand miles between us,
I wish I could just drive.
But you wouldn't have me on your doorstep,
And I don't think I can see you alive.

It's a quarter to the dawn,
My cigarette is gone.
And I can't believe the melodies,
While they play our favorite song.

And I guess this night can't get darker,
When dawn never comes.
I guess I'll have to forget you,
And what you've become.

Dearest Penelope,

I write this with shaky hand,
Making sure that every line is perfect,
With dotted i's and crossed t's,
Hoping it will make you,
Think much higher of me.

But Darling, my most beautiful atrocity,
Dearest Penelope,
You know you bring me nothing,
But heart aches and misery.

But if that is what I need,
To feel attached to you.
Then heart break it is,
'Til I find my way through,
To you.

Dearest Penelope,
I'll love you,
Forever if it'll be,
Dearest Penelope I love you,
Signed Sincerely, me.

It's been three weeks,
Since you left.
And I've been so lucky,
To spend the weekends in your bed.

My mind may have been clouded,
With alcohol and morphine,
And I may have drank too quickly,
But I still shivered from the taste of your kiss.

It's now the fourth week,
And I count myself so lucky,
To know that I'm able to spend,
At least a few short hours with you.

It will be nearly three months,
Before you come home to me.
I know that no snow or ice or slush,
Could keep you driving back to my arms.

I found Heaven,
From first I kissed her lips,
But I lost myself,
In a needle and a bag.

A little pill drove the pain away,
And a bag brought me false paradise,
And these four walls held me tightly,
As I sweat it all out inside.

And steel bars and concrete walls,
Kept me away from you,
When the ****** finally,
Left my veins.

Now it's been four months,
And I've held Heaven in my arms again,
But I can't yet call her mine,
Though I haunt her dreams at night.

And it'll be four more months,
Before I might fall asleep with her by my side,
And repeatedly I dream of memories,
That make me want to run, to hide.

So I've never written your name into my poems,
And I've never dared to dream.
Maybe you are more to me,
And I am less it seems.
No, It cannot be,
That I have become so little.
How can I be strong,
And yet be so brittle?

Don't go,
God knows I can't live all alone.
Please stay,
Even if the distance still grows.

Nearly a hundred miles,
And I'm fine with the drive.
Saving up money for gas,
Working nine to five.

Don't go,
I don't care if I only hear your voice on the phone.
Please stay,
The only thing that matters is I can call you my own.

Promise me you won't leave,
Even when you have to go away.
So long as I still hear "I love you,"
I'll know you plan to stay.

Her voice was breathless as she said,
I don't know what you want of me.
And I held her in the moonlight,
As I whispered, please just let us be.

I know that I can live without you,
But without you I'd be a wreck,
If I had to live without you baby,
I'd be miserable at best.

I know my lungs would stop the air I breathe,
And my heart would lose its lust for blood,
My mind would be filled with torrid thoughts,
I'd most certainly be quickly lost.

Please don't go,
Promise you'll stay,
Because I won't live without you,
For much longer than a day.

I don't want to go back to old habits,
Or bring new ones to bear,
I just want to love you,
And have you always be here.

I don't know why I,
Even think to try,
And find someone new,
When my heart just,
Keeps coming back to you.

Even though it's been hours,
I still taste you on my lips,
I feel your warmth lingering,
On my finger tips.

Might I say your gasping breath,
And moans of sweet relief,
Felt like clutching fingers,
As your ecstasy was reached.

Now we danced around the subject,
Of where we might go,
Though if I'm being honest,
We both surely know.

And even though you want,
To take it very slow,
I know I quicken your pulse,
As I tug at your clothes.

Eight years without you,
Bed so cold without you here,
Please come back to me.

Colorful lies,
Pastels the color of your lips,
On mine.

Colorful eyes,
Pastels the color of your lips,
Without mine.

Narcotic sleep so sound,
I thought We'd wake deep under ground.
And your colorful lies,
Don't make me see home no more.

No, no more.

It's been a while,
Since I've slept so soundly.
My head is filled with thoughts,
Suicidal, so profoundly.

So don't tell me to put it down,
This razor feels so comfortable.
Like your colorful eyes,
And the pastels that bleed from the hole made by this,
Needle again.

No, don't tell me to put it down.
I've got my rig filled with sweet,
Oh so sweet, salt filled morphine.

And I've gotten my spoon and cotton,
Held together by the tourniquet,
That holds together my veins each night.

And your colorful eyes,
Fill my rig each time,
The needle finds a vein.

And pastel colors,
Fall like rain down staircases,
Beautiful close your eyes and lips this time,
You're just too jaded, far too wasted.

So I guess I'll bring you home,
Crawl under the covers,
And watch your colorful eyes,
Close one last time.

I guess I'll watch them close just one last,
Oh just one last ******* time.
And I'll hold your hand,
Just hold your hand in mine.

As I watch your colorful eyes,
Close just one last time.
I'll hold your hand,
I'll hold your hand in mine.

It's funny how the taste of,
******,
Reminds me of,
You.

They said I couldn't fix you,
And I kept silent,
But when they said I couldn't save you,
I made up my mind,
Knowing that I would die trying.

A million lessons learned,
In a second of desire.
As the needles draws blood,
From my wrist.
I found pleasure,
In sickness, not in health.
A millions lessons learned,
Lying in bed,
Shaking from the cold,
No one else can feel.
Days pass,
Sickness fades,
But I'll not forget,
What poison brings.

Baby it's so cold,
And I just hope you're warm.
When the snow falls just know,
I'm not alright.

I say I'm fine and no,
I don't want to talk about it.
Can this cigarette just,
Flood cancer through my cells.

I'm living a waking nightmare,
And I can't seem to wake.
I pray to God. Please,
My soul is yours to take.

That last shot,
Of whiskey,
Filled my tongue,
With the taste of you.

I stopped drinking,
Long before the thought,
Of suicide,
Filled my head.

I stopped drinking,
When images of us,
Started to creep,
Into my veins.

Darling can't you tell,
I haven't slept too well,
Since last I held,
My beautiful girl.

I'd sell my very soul,
To call you mine again.
It's been so long since I've cried,
But I'm not sure I can hold back next time.

I stopped drinking,
When the whiskey began,
To taste like you,
And the *** began to taste the same.

I dreamed last night,
With my eyes wide open.
Dreamed of running along,
With her trailing behind.

As I ran faster,
And the distance between us grew,
I could still feel her fingertips,
Attached to mine like glue.

And even though it was nearly dawn,
When I laid my weary head,
I felt the soft profoundness,
That I feel when we share my bed.

And even though I loved her,
And sometimes I still do.
You know that you're all I love now,
That my only love is you.

I know I dreamed about her,
When my eyes were open tight.
But when my head hit the pillow,
I dreamed of nothing but You all night.

The wind blew in,
On a warm march day.
Started off with rain,
Then snow in the middle of May.

Halfway to June,
I lost track of time.
somehow though,
I kept rhythm and rhyme.

It was quarter to November,
When I finally stopped to say,
Whatever happened to,
March, April and May?

I no longer look
When I cross the road.
I only close my eyes and pray
That maybe this will be the day.

I hope to hear the sound
Of screeching tires and breaks,
Before my body hits the windshield
And I am filled with pain.

I hope to hear the sirens
And the tinkling of glass,
When my body hits the ground
At long, long last.

I pray there is no heaven
And certainly no hell,
For either would be filled with memories
I certainly can live without.

I wish only for oblivion
A darkness so complete,
That it fills my heart with yearning
And teases my soul with defeat.

I no longer look before the crosswalk
For my time will come so soon,
And I never look to see if you're watching
Before I leave the room.

I've never really thought of,
Suicide as anything but poetic.
Your face being the last thing he saw,
As he dropped the photograph and loaded his gun.

But lately I've been thinking,
That perhaps that's not the way.
I always said when I die,
It'll be because I had a say.

Now I'm thinking,
I want it to be random.
A car crash or a bullet,
And not a word from your lips.

Lately I've been thinking,
That maybe a razor is not the way.
Maybe a gunshot,
Is too violent for me.

But what could be too violent,
For a man who loves words?
When I've read your little poems,
And known that Love is War.

Nothing could be more violent,
Than the way you held my hand.
While knowing I was nothing,
I just can't understand.

So I suppose my death will be random,
But why can't I have a say?
If when you die is predetermined,
Then why die in any other way?

My hands are shaking cold,
There's far too much,
That I don't know.

Your warm embrace brought me calm,
Warmed me from the cold,
And now the nights aren't so lonely,
Knowing you're still around.

I've got a taste on my tongue,
That burns with regret,
For all the words I kept hidden,
For all I could've said.

I told you I'm sorry,
For all the time we lost,
And that I need to fix the damage,
My actions had caused.

It's funny how all the nightmares,
I had all of those nights,
Were swept away in seconds,
At seeing my hearts delight.

Now time is moving slowly,
With each passing second all alone,
And I hope the warmth will come again,
And take away the cold.

For all the years we spent together,
I'm surprised how much we each,
Dance around the phrase,
I love you.

It's as though we play a game,
Where the first to fall back,
In love loses,
But I lost a long time ago.

I've let you lead the way,
And make your moves,
Before I plan out mine,
This time around.

I've let you do all the talking,
And tell me all the things you've done,
Before I tell you,
Stories of my own.  

You keep apologizing profusely,
And I keep dreaming of you.
As I wait for the next time,
We dance around I love yous.

She is the whiskey in my drink,
That keeps me warm on winter nights,
That first cigarette I smoke,
After a long night asleep.

She is that first breath,
After a deep dive,
That first kiss,
On summer nights.

She's my glance up at the stars,
The reason I still dream,
My prayer to God in heaven,
My sole reason for being.

She's my belief in something more,
Thanks just me and this life,
My reason for breathing,
My greatest delight.

She is all of this and so much more,
She's her own wonderful girl.
She's everything I ever needed,
And she's so, so much more.

May I lay my life to fate,
For golden curls on a girl,
Named Kate.

Accidents happen,
Injuries arise,
May I staunch your wound,
As I stare into your eyes?

How did this happen,
Punishment gone awry.
Mayhaps my luck,
May have risen high.

How do I approach this,
To try and gain,
Your heart and your smile,
While I stave off my pain.

Perhaps she'll enfold me,
And I'll find my way,
Into her heart,
Where I may just stay.

My heart started to rot,
In eighth grade spanish class,
That moment you danced into the room,
A spotlight on your smile.

I say it started to rot,
For it knew I will never know your love.
But what's the difference,
Between misery and ever after?

My heart began to rot,
When you took my hand and ran.
Rain pounding down,
Cascading around the halo on your head.

I say it started to rot,
For I knew then you loved me too.
But what's the difference,
Between having him or having me?

My heart began to rot when I saw his smile,
And I knew mine would never compete.
And how his hand fit with yours,
While you held him to your breast.

My heart began to rot,
Oh so long ago.
And now there is nothing more,
Than darkness where you once were.

No need to pray,
No need to speak.
No need for thoughts,
In the Ocean deep.

Just breathe in, breathe in,
Your consciousness is waning.
Your confidence is praying,
Your confidant prepared to stay.

Your heart is throbbing,
Your breath is wavering.
No need to pray,
The Ocean is taking you over,
Again.

Another wave upon my shores,
No more need for open doors.
Take a step into the shallows.
Prepare to leap from high atop,
The gallows.

Another step brings you closer to,
The Ocean edge is dropping still.
Another sip is all it takes,
To fall into Hell's open gates.

And fires beat upon the shores,
The Oceans waves are no more.
But still these waves beat me down,
Into the fires below the ground.

And we are the lost generation,
The end of time is all we wait on.
And still we think we are good.
You fool, you fool, you're breathing still.

On and on passes time,
Leaving us swiftly behind.
And still we wait for our last chance,
To close the doors on our romance.

To my bed I pull you slowly,
To the gallows waiting behind me.
Lay your head upon my pillow,
As the noose tightens, I close the window.
I watch you drop from up on high,
To the Ocean's depths we rise.
And we are drowning, though we stand,
I welcome you with open hands.

You'll sit with me upon the bedside,
Waiting til we all die.
Though poison tastes like honey and wine,
The antidote is hard to find.

And so we are the forgotten youth,
Laid to waste by father's troops.
And though their bullets make us bleed,
We trudge on through the widow's weave.

Through mud and blood we find our place,
Lost in our ***** tastes.
I thought that maybe we could find,
Peace hidden deep inside.

But still the monks say we must wait,
Lost inside this burning place.
And Father stands upon the shore,
Hoping we shall open the door.

Though Heaven's full,
We'll make our place,
Lost into this burning face,
And still I find you hurting still,
My heart and soul have had their fill.

So take up my razor,
And skin my flesh.
Leave no more, no nothing left.
Peel my skin, my flesh, my bone.
And leave me a rotting soul.

For Father stands upon these gates,
Hell burning across his face.
And the Ocean will take none unto,
The depths will have us rotting soon.

So float back down,
And swim inside.
I know you know,
I've got much to hide.

But with my flesh, my bone and sinew,
Know that I have forgotten you.
And hope that one day you'll find,
A casket burning with me inside.

A sad song, a little lullaby,
To get me through another night.
I miss how your lips,
Never touched mine, a repeated process of goodnights and goodbyes.

Don't cry, for me tonight,
I'll find my way out of the dark.

I'm hallow now,
No needle to fill me up.
No more little white pills,
To hide your absence.

Take my hand one more time,
Like at that concert that one night.
When I thought he was gone, and so was she.
I thought we could make us right.

I can't take any more,
And yet you want another piece.
I've got everything you can keep.

It seems my demons find me,
When I am all alone.
And they fill the room around me,
Hurting me to the bone.

They know every lie I tell,
And know that morphine is my disease,
So they leave me with a needle,
A tickle and a tease.

For some odd reason,
I could never be too sure.
They leave me nothing to fill it,
But always leave me wanting more.

And somehow I find a way,
To fill my veins with blue.
When all I'm doing always,
Is filling the holes left from you.

And gold keeps paying for my habit,
But stops me from living a dream.
Keeps me just so lucid,
To destroy another beam.

And with each I crack into,
Takes me down from my support.
Until there is nothing left,
No, nothing but rapport.

So I tie off just one more time,
And pick up my larger rig.
As the needle pierces skin,
My own ****** grave, I dig.

I sat among the stars one day,
Hoping my problems would just,
Fade away.

The sun was warm upon my face,
Reminding me of memories,
I can't erase.

And the moon was comforting,
while she held me tight.
She whispered in my ear,
Do not give up your plight.

And so I sat among the stars all day,
Hoping that I might not,
Simply fade away.

God knows I've tried not to notice,
As the ninth comes around.
It has been five months of,
Alcohol and ****** to fill your absence.

I still remember what it feels like,
To have you hug me and say that everything is okay.
And I can still hear your voice at night.

You have no idea how much I have spent,
To try to erase the pain I feel inside.
You fell asleep one last time,
And a part of me went when you died.

I won't shed another tear,
No, I won't cry again.
I swear I won't cry,
Except maybe one last time.

I shake as I clench my cigarette,
Burning between *******.
I shake as tears cascade around me,
The taste of liquor my only friend.

I shake as I aim for the shot,
Hoping the ****** will stop my heart this time.
I see blood mix and push the plunger down,
This high is my only friend.

It has been five months without you dad,
But I feel as if has only been a day.
I still feel you cold skin beneath my fingers,
And wish death could have stayed away.

I'm a grain of sand,
Beneath the soles of a prophet,
In the desert of time,
Insignificant, yet...infinite.

Lost,
Time flowing smoothly,
Unstoppable, a force to reckon,
The sun pounding the prophet's back.

I am the book,
Hidden in his satchel,
That tells him to just,
Take another step.

Parched lips speak prayers,
Ignorant in my ears.
Beams shone upon him,
He is enlightened.

To speak to God.
How mighty it must be.

I thought you were ******,
But you taste like *******.
The way you make my heart beat,
And my tears fall like rain.

I thought you'd be the flower,
I'd pick and you'd be mine.
But I got lost somewhere between,
Jealousy and fine.

Sadly it'll never happen,
You'll never share my bed,
So I'll just have to load this needle,
In the place where you could rest your head.

I can hear the rain,
As it drips through the pane.
I know I'll feel better at the window,
Hoping a breeze will take me away.

But all I hear is,
I don't love you,
I don't love you like I did him.
I don't love you,

(I love you like you love him)

Can we still dream,
Frozen nights, but I'm still warm,
With you by my side.
Running laughter, through pouring rain.

And I can eat your heart out,
When he no longer speaks your name.

But all I hear is,
I don't love you,
I don't love you like I did him.
I don't love you,

(I love you like you love him)

All I hear is,
He doesn't love me,
He doesn't love me like before.
He doesn't love me,

(I could love you like he never could)


I could love you,
Til the stars burn red.
I will love you,
Til I am dead.

(I love you.
I love you like he never did.
But now there's nothing left of us,
But my broken heart and your lace,
I wish I left something more than scratches,
Etched into your skin.)

And it feels like rain,
When you've had too much to drink,
And you can't fall asleep at night.

Take a pill or two,
For that hangover,
You'll have when you wake up.
Cause darling, I miss you so **** much.

And it feels like rain,
When you cry from all the laughter,
That's pouring from their mouths.

And it feels like rain,
When you tie the knot,
And prepare to jump.

But darling, wait.
The sun comes up,
In the early morning,
You just have to get through the night,
When it feels like rain.

I'm fighting through each second,
I'm forced to be awake.
This pain has become so haunting,
And I'm not sure how much more I can take.

Sleep has become a pleasure,
A reprieve from life itself,
Though my dreams often leave me,
With memories I sorely miss.

Now it seems I lost my heart,
Somewhere along the line,
But if you'd ask me how I'm doing,
I'd tell you that I'm just fine.

I wouldn't tell you how I often wish,
That I'd wake up dead,
Nor would you ever hear of the sadness,
That always fills my head.

You'd never hear how I died inside,
When I learned that we me never be,
Or just how haunting,
My dreams are to me.

Nor would you ever hear me say,
I would sell my very soul,
To have you as my own forever,
For you to once more be my girl.

In the beginning,
I blamed naught but you.
And somehow i thought,
You never thought of me too.

Somewhere in the middle,
I got lost in between,
Believing you wanted nothing,
But friendship it seems.

In the end I was wrong,
Yet there's nothing left.
I'm a wolf in sheeps clothing,
And you've seen nothing yet.

Lost in buildings,
Surrounded by lights,
The roar of the engine,
As my two sides fight.

Another hour,
Lost in your new town.
Watching him kiss your cheek,
Reaching for the tourniquet again.

I thought I was lonely,
When she held my hand,
But you've left me alone,
In a sea that never sees land.

Another kiss is nothing like what you've already achieved.

I lost my mind,
You broke my heart,
And took my soul
I could return to paradise.

I float,
Somewhere between hell,
And purgatory.
A soul afire, I float.

I miss you,
Every night and day.
I miss you so much,
I don't know what to say.

I know you need to be there,
For you and for us.
But sometimes I grow weak,
And my mind begins to rust.

Oxidation occurs,
And spreads through my veins.
My heart beats wildly,
When the winds begin to change.

I miss you so much,
That if you asked me to,
I'd walk the 87 miles,
It takes to reach you.

It'd take me a week,
Maybe a bit more.
But the cramps in my legs,
Would be worth arriving at your door.

It's been 24 hours,
Since I saw you last.
And God, girl,
I'm sick of living in the past.

Patience has always,
Been one of my virtues.
But I can honestly say,
My virtues are stretched thin these days.

These skies break open,
And spill over me.
Like diamonds to the sun,
Forever they breathe.

They spin like gems,
Floating over broken glass.
I lay motionless in white,
Watching you slowly pass.
(Just smile for me)

And I feel like we could be,
Could be heroes if we set our minds to the goal,
Just stay with me and scream one, two, three,
Here we go!
(We could be heroes in the end)

If the end is just a tunnel,
With a light running above.
I feel like I’ll be failing,
To open the letter sealed with your love.
(Could you please just smile for me?)

And as I lie on broken glass,
An inch above the shard,
I feel myself floating,
And digging my grave in your backyard.
Because Seattle was never the place,
For a boy like me.
Another shot of morphine,
And I’ll be floating free.

We could be heroes in the end,
If the days would only die.
And the stars could split beside the moon and sun,
And you could fall from the sky.

The only words I hear,
Before I drift off to sleep,
In your whispered voice,
I love you.

The only comfort I feel,
As I rise with the sun,
The feeling of your arms,
Around me.

The only thing I taste,
Before I leave the house,
Smothers my tongue,
With your kiss.

The only memories I have,
Are filled with good old times.
Now I'm lost in this thing called life,
With you not by my side.

My heart beat's pounding,
In ears too deaf to hear,
The words you last spoke,
To me.

All I hear is,
I don't love you,
I don't love you,
Anymore.

How long did it take,
To forget the feeling of my arms,
As you cried yourself to sleep,
Year after year?

How long after my wrists were bound,
Before you forgot all the years,
Spent with my heart,
In your bed?

How long until you decided,
Maybe my soul wasn't worth it,
Anymore?

I no longer wish to be a body,
I wish to only be a soul.
For without a body,
I may become whole.

I no longer wish to be a body,
I wish to only be a soul.
For without a body,
I may become whole.

I never thought I'd be,
Such a disappointment to you.
Sixteen years flushed down the drain,
You leaving hit me like the proverbial train.

I wish I had waited,
Til you left to get my fix.
I should've known that you and morphine,
Were the worst combinations to mix.

You asked me how it felt,
To have a needle in my vein.
You, my oldest friend,
Should understand it takes away all my pain.

You couldn't take seeing my blood,
Filling up the syringe.
Or the look on my face,
As I started my binge.

Goodbye my oldest friend,
I'll miss you to the last.
Not a night will go by,
Where I don't think of our past.

I fought so hard for that first kiss,
That I was nearly frozen when,
I found you wanted more,
Than just my lips.

Oh, love, I forgot how it felt,
To run my hands alone your skin,
Or how alluring you can be,
When your breath comes in gasps.

I had your hair wrapped in my fingers,
And my teeth at the hollow of your throat.
You had your hands locked on my face,
While our hearts beat in rhythm.

I never imagined our reunion,
Would be in the seat of your car,
Or that you'd stop me,
Before I got too far.

You told me there needs to be a reason,
That I'll want you again,
But darling you couldn't imagine,
How sorely I want in.

I thought the scars were gone,
I couldn't believe you disappeared.
You took everything I loved,
And left everything I feared.

This story was all over,
Until you came back around.
I should've left you buried,
Like a body six feet underground.

It was never enough,
For me to love you like this.
I filled my heart with your whispers,
And yearned for your kiss.

I am immortal,
While I wish I could die.
Rip out my heart,
As you look me in the eyes.

Bury me down,
Deep, far away from this world.
I am nothing,
A body with no soul.

So love me forever,
If only forever could be.
I dream of the day,
You fall in love with me.

Sometimes the meds aren't enough,
When I’m trying to fall asleep at night.
And I keep seeing the same thing pass behind my eyes,
Memories and dreams of years past by.

I feel my eyelids start to close,
Before they come round again.
My chest feels heavy,
My head feels light.

A concert, four peach colored walls,
A red flower and a silent pose.
Two cups, both half drunk,
An uncourageous half dead rose.

**** I can’t sleep tonight,
But the meds are kicking quick.
If I close my eyes,
Will it be worth the risk?

I know we all give up on,
Lost causes when the time's up.
But my heart keeps beating,
Knowing that we will make it through.

You could keep me honest,
You could keep me from everything,
Everything that makes me self destructive.
You could keep me from setting myself aflame.

I know that everything is messed up,
Waiting for the sound of the gong,
To dance around my head,
Keeping my heartbeat sound.

And I know I keep *******,
Everything up time and time again,
But I promise I'll be here,
If only you'll be here with me.

I know I'm a mess,
I don't need the sight of,
A needle or a drop of my blood,
To tell me that.

Maybe I need a few pills,
To keep me alive,
Or maybe you'll be the,
****** I need tonight.

Maybe you're the rush,
Baby you're the rush,
I keep on postponing,
Keep on putting off the question.

But give me one more shot,
Give me one more *****,
One more rush and I promise,
I'll ask for just one more each time.