I want to crack every bone in my body, and turn my screams into twigs under your feet.
I feel my lungs breaking,
And my heart aching.
I need a sense of purpose.
Something to tell me that its all worth it.

Ascend me to the heavens
And let my soul vanish.
Tell god about my flaws,
I don't care if its tarnished.
Hollow out my thoughts,
Allow my eyes to become blackened.

I don't doubt your love,
But your resemblance is uncanny.
To the sadness in my veins
And the bleak future that I carry.
The bruises on my shoulders have been too much to take,
But the numbness never ceases to await.
Allow me to fall apart.
Take my life and give it to another worth the breath.
Destroy my view of the world,
And don't accept another like it.
My last words will be, 'I didn't fight it'.

Ascend me to the heavens
And let my soul vanish.
Tell god about my flaws,
I don't care if its tarnished.
Hollow out my thoughts,
Allow my eyes to become

darkened.

i'm out of tears
the pain, melted away

i'm out of tears
the pain, melted in my veins

up in the sky
the clouds, wash away

up in the sky
the clouds, give out rain

im out of tears
but god, cries for me.

I woke up again today.
I didn't want to.
You know why, but I'll remind you.
Remember when we snuck out at two?
You were hungry and I just wanted to see you.
You were hard to get but I got you.
I snuck out every night since then.
Climbed through your window and into your bed.
We just laid there and held hands just like you said.
Told me on the phone two months earlier,
"I just want to lay with someone and hold their hand,
Study their palms with touch just like my little brother read".
You were lovely really.
I was always nervous around you but I loved when you called me silly.
It feels like just yesterday I handed you your favorite flower.
We were in the park and we didn't talk but honestly that was my favorite hour.
And soon you became my favorite flower.
We blossomed into something more,
Something love couldn't even devour.
I had the whole world in my hands because I held you.
It was beautiful.
Two years later and I still smiled when I saw you.
We were meant for each other because I know you felt the same when you saw me too.
I'm sorry I keep having to remind you,
But every morning I have to.
Because you're not here anymore,
And i miss you.
I don't know what I did to deserve this but I'm asking for forgiveness.
I'm sorry for every wrong I did,
I repent to every sin.

And I'm scared to fix our bed because I feel like you might still come back in.

And I hate how I might wake up again.