It starts out with me as it's guide, then develops a mind of it's own.
As if it now only knows what hurts
If it knows what hurts then shouldn't it know what doesn't?

I wait there. Not knowing what is going to happen next
I wanted a mind, but NOT a mind of it's own

The old city is beneath our feet—
buried ruins of the pioneers, our ancestors.
For thirty blocks in every direction
we walk, our everyday footsteps like knocks
upon the doors of their empty, abandoned homes.
Just as one hears the sea inside a washed-up shell,
so, too, the streets roar with echoes of the past.
The cracks in the concrete are windows
thrown open to a lost civilization.
It takes a jackhammer to unearth the treasure.
Drilling through the concrete,
like opening a rusted chest of drawers in the attic
in search of relics.
Beneath the asphalt and tangled steel—
a yellowed photo,
a scrap of moth-eaten fabric,
a handful of dust.
The memories of our grandparents
recalled in our walking.

As the body without soul is dead
So is faith without deeds is dead
I wish I was alive
I can't relive my misery
I won't live
I'm Dead
I can't live without your love
You're love for me is *Dead

Skipping down the lanes of joy
I choose to live the life that only I want
I believe what I want
I have been told though that life doesn't end happily
For some say it never ends
I believe only some things
If you want life to end then it will
Otherwise it continues forever
I believe you have two choices
To skip down the lane of joy, which is the long way
It comes with success, laughter, love and happiness
Or to walk down the road of sorrow
It comes with sadness, hatred, and loneliness



I am proud to be **different

You ask me if I'm happy
But do you really care?

You ask me if I'm hurting
But do you really care?

You say you'd do me a favor
Are you really trying to care?

When times comes you run
Run away never turning around

But have you thought about this?

You run away from hardships
But when you ask me if I can
I say no

You want to know why?
You want to know why I can't just run away from my hardships?

It's because if I run away, where will I go?
Where will I go, if I have no support

So tell me now.
Do you really care?

Darkness surrounds me, closing in
I have moments to live
I wish I could confess
But in times before, you had built a brick wall
In your mind and heart
Your tunnel vision hurts, MY soul, and heart
I wish I had more time
Before I have to die
If only you can delay darkness
I have some time, let me confess
The words won't let out
Of this tortured soul.
God, I think is doing me a favor by taking me away
Gasping for breath and not letting go
I wish you would hold me all on your own
My last breath is coming
Stop being blind
Time is close to ending
I have one second
I wish to see you again sometime
Goodbye for this lifetime
Goodnight this time

Your eyes say one and your heart says another
You wish they say the same
I want to show that my eyes are hateful
But my heart says loving
Only you can tell me which one comes before another
Your eyes say one and your heart says another

I choose to live the life that only I want. I believe what I want.
I have been told though that live doesn't end happily. For some say it never ends.
I believe only one thing; if you want life to end then it will, other wise it continues forever

I look into these eyes
And I do not recognise
What I am inside
I live on hope
And dreams

Your hate for her
Her eyes try to be happy
You don't realize what she's been through
You're inconsiderate jerks
She talented and beautiful
If you don't see it
Then you are blind
Her beauty is within
Take the time to see it
Don't judge her by she talk or walks
Or the scar on her neck
Don't be an inconsiderate ****

I'm tried of this, I've gone a little mad
You've stolen my self-confidence
I come in as a storm, and come out like a little rain
You make me feel small, you make me feel useless
From when we were kids, we've been told
"It's good to be special."
But in the real world, is it really?
You've made fun of my culture and religion
You made fun of my nationality
I'm just as American as you.
I was born here, and I act as you do
I dress different, but that means nothing
I speak English too, along with others.
I'm the exact same, just with values and morals
You may not have any, but...
DOES THAT GIVE YOU ANY RIGHT TO MAKE FUN OF ME!!!!??

I'm ashamed of who I am
I know you're ashamed of me
You abuse me with your words
I sit in a corner everyday
Thinking of the ways you can ****
But sometimes when I dont think about you killing me
I think about the other ways I can die
If you hate me so much
Just make your pain and mine end
**** Me Now

Life is not a race.
Its a test
Of endurance,
Overcoming obstacles.
And finding out who you are.
It is not about who finished last,
Or who won the gold,
Its about the ones who made it.
Who actually completed the test.
Who survived.
And those who believe,
Will complete the test,
The ones who will win the race,
In their own hearts, souls and  minds.
*Cheaters Never Win

I live for a life
Never for love
Laughter can be joy
Never with happiness
Tears can sadness
But sometimes happiness
You can buy everything
But not one
One thing you can never buy
Not this lifetime
Not the next
Never
Never
It is....
LOVE

When I look at you, I feel dead.
Like a fish out of water.
Like the ocean goes out for thousands of miles.
My heart and love goes along that path.
Love, is what is there for me and there for you

Now I see the truth, your love is not mine
Nor will it ever be
I wish sometimes things that are too sad to be true
But I continue my life without you.

Early in the morning, I open up
But not completely- no one would understand
Only I, no one else
Not even the people closest to me
They think they know me the best.
But aren't you forgetting you're the ones who let my sprit down
The pain you gave me was for the best
The day was done. I cried it all out...

I went inside my lonely little bud
And I sat in a dark, lonely corner-
waiting for something to hit me
Everyone abuses me- emotionally and physically
They don't care how they make me feel
For all I am is a little flower
Opening up to the world

Day 1: You say I'm pretty
You say I'm worth the world
Day 2: You give me your heart
I'm now you world.
I try to give you everything
Day 3: Our relationship is at it's peak
The one heart we share
Never heard a creak
Day 4: It started going down-hill now
You tell me that I'm amazing,
You tell me that you need to climb higher
To find the right one
Day 5: It's over now; your heart's with you
Still together, mine in shreads
A heart that was one
Now is two
Because of you

*Our five days of love are those to remember, those to love share. To laugh or to cry in the future.
Don't be sad that it's over. Just remember this. You're present ended because it's time for the future.
You're past doesn't matter, just look straight forward. Just remember the good of your past

I am here.
I am, now.
I am not there.
I am not, then.
This is the purpose of my existence.
I look up at infinity.
I look up into the past.
What I see is not what is.
Close your eyes, shed the glasses.
What I think is what is.
Reality is limited only by thoughts.
Unleash them. Set them free. Experience. Perceive.

Ghosts of toads still haunt my dreams
Scratch my cheeks with desperate nails
Leather lips still jeer and scream
And mouths drip blood on muddy trails

Can it be said
That each lover knows
All about the other?
Can it be said
That a lover is
Half of a whole?
Does love, that ever-elusive emotion
Find itself lost among the tangles of the heart?
I will never know you
Nor you I;
Will I ever love you
Or you I?
Would we know it if we did?
Can we truly feel at all?
Or will we slowly turn to dust
Deceived, thinking that love is real?
Will knowing decide our lives?

Is anyone there
To console my cries
To sit and listen
While my tears glisten
I sit and wait
Wait for that one
For IF you come by
Just give me push
Hope your arms are open
Give me the love
Give me the care

I'm willing for someone, anyone

Lay with me
Against the trembling earth
Our hands intertwined in the cold, misted grass
With nothing but the crumbles of ground to seperate us from reality.
Stay with me
Feel the wind dance across your chest
The rhythmic beating of my heart, the beating of your heart
The breeze within your hair swaying, bringing life into our souls again.
Be with me
I long for the warmth of your touch
The sun can't even come close to the sparks you induce
I want to bottle this moment, and save it for a cold winter day.
Break me
I want to feel true loves pain
I want to want to break down all my walls
And let you in. for the first time in my life, drop all my guards.
Love me
Like you never want to leave
Like you'll never ever run, never walk away.
With the moon and the stars and the sun, all burning in your heart.
Save me
Fix the broken parts of my aching heart.
Help me find myself, find the things i long to know within
Take my hand, we can stay like this forever.
An island of hope, in a sea of repetition.

I'm sitting there talking
Waiting for a ding
While waiting there, just sitting
I turn around, fast as I can
Hearing a gunshot, pass me by
I look by and I see
A pool of blood
Where my friends used to be

Love has happened, It has been exchanged
This is the place to live and die
These arms; these paths
Where would this trickster go leaving them behind
My heart may be innocent, it may be a rebel
But tell me love; will we be together or not
Changing colours in each lifetime
We blossom the behind the curtains of dreamland
We are travelers on the path of love
We'll meet again as time goes by
The heart calls out when someone falls in love
Say something, my darling
Now there's a pain in my heart
I'll build a house infront of your's, even if it's inadequate
I wish someone would love me even if it's a lie
My Prince Charming with the beautiful steed
So what if the world calls me a Barbarian
You flit from place to place, so my heart calls out "Yahoo"
With stars wrapped around you
G-D I bow to you
Niether thorns or stones can hurt us, no matter what the world does
My partner for life, the Prince of my dreams
This journey is a beautiful one
People will always comment, don't listen to them
All I want is peace to my heart; pray that I get it
Oh heartache; agonies of the heart
I want to show the world, I'm not less than anyone
I have to show you that; that's ny promise
To me you are my moon, sun and stars
My heaven and Hell, and my sky

You don't speak; you don't even ask for it
Whatever you give, you give with you heart
You don't speak; you don't even care
Whatever you give, you give with a smile
You are my light, you are my shadow
You are mine, you are a stranger
I don't know anything else, I only know this
That I see God in you. What should I do?
My head is bowing down in your worship. What should I do?

Yesterday
I lost myself inside of you,
And I couldn’t find my way out.  
My happiness was replaced with tears;
My dignity was replaced with jealousy.  
I held my breath until the day you let me go.  

Today
I can breathe again

Tomorrow
I will learn from my mistakes