i am dizzy
i don’t think i have been eating well enough
my thoughts are clouded
my body, weak
arms outstretched, my hands reach
but no one reciprocates
drowning in my own words
emotions allude me
no filter, only shame
where is the hole i crawled out of?
this emptiness is so heavy
the dark is thick with static energy
my ears ring constantly, a silent alarm
i hear you, do you hear me?
subconsciously awaiting the sign
dismissing all hope and fear alike
content in my instability
tear-streaked and beautiful
nov 2013
chattanooga tn