1.) don't ever confuse my kindness and generosity for weakness because trust me, i will choke you with the hand that i fed you with.

2.) every single thought of you accentuates my internal flame and let me tell you, i'm ******* burning, but i don't mind.

3.) i try to make people's arms walls even though they never will be stable enough and i've attempted so many times to make someone's chest a pillow and i try to make homes out of people when i know that it'll never work

4.) i had to be my own hero

5.)  my mind is a galaxy but you refuse to stargaze

6.) i found my reason and now it all makes sense

7.) i should have loved myself with the love i gave him

8.) i wrote about you so often that every time my ink pen scraped a piece of paper, the ink pen bled your name

9.) i think i'm gonna be forever homesick for arms that don't want to hold me

10.) my thoughts are always all over the place and i think that's okay. a girl's brain is like spaghetti right? spaghetti is messy, but it's good.

11.) i'm not a difficult person to make happy

12.) so sometimes i try to jumble letters together to create beautiful words but they don't always make sense. whoops.

13.) my self-image and the way i perceive myself is very demented and distorted but i'm working on it.

14.) i think the best present that i've ever given myself was self-acceptance

15.) my body aches to intertwine with yours

16.) my stomach has cobwebs where butterflies are supposed to be

17.) you always whispered to me, "come in" but the more you let the words roll off of your tongue the more it sounded like get out.

18.) i loathe sympathy because sympathy is one of the worst forms of kindness

19.) i want to fall in love with myself before i fall in love with anyone

20.) no amount of carefully picked metaphors and beautiful run on sentences will ever be able to depict the beauty that is you

21.) sometimes i'm just a really sad poem with feet

22.) i'm the most optimistic pessimist you'll ever meet

23.) they say that if you fall in love with a writer, you can never die. wanna become immortal?

24.) this doesn't make sense and it won't.

sometimes you have got to understand that it's not your job to feel everything for everyone. and it's not your fault that you don't. because if you go around trying to feel her sadness, his pain, their madness, and her confusion, eventually you're not gonna be able to feel anything at all. and trust me, that's not anything that you want.

why do things that are destructive to you, and your health, just to benefit other people? you know, you're not obligated to set yourself on fire just to keep other people warm and you don't have to bite your tongue to the point where you feel like you don't have one anymore and it's not logical to cross oceans and seas for people when you're deathly afraid of drowning and they won't even bother to get their feet wet and you can't let someone hold power over just because you love them. oh no, no, no. no one should ever hold power over you. you are such a perfect arrangement of atoms. there's only one of you. you're special. you come first. you matter most. don't blatantly put yourself into harm's way without ever contemplating the outcome; especially if the person you're putting yourself into harm's way for isn't reciprocating the emotion.

i can't.
i never could, and i never will be able to.

i wrote about you so often that every time my ink pen scraped a piece of paper the pen bled your name

1.) you can't make a home out of a person no matter how hard you try.

2.) happiness, love and acceptance isn't found at the bottoms of broken and shattered bottles nor is it found at the bottom of medicine containers

3.) you're always gonna feel broken if you're constantly listening to someone who's forever telling you that some part of you needs to be fixed

4.) the best love is self love

5.) just because you always mean what you say, doesn't mean that everybody else does

6.) life is full of sudden goodbyes

7.) there's no need to lose yourself as a person but you surely can lose yourself in a book

8.) you shouldn't let anyone shatter and destroy you.

9.) crying when you're hurt doesn't mean that you're weak

10.) it's okay to feel

11.) love is an extremely beautiful thing but sometimes it really hurts

12.) there's a reason why everyone's heart has a cage around it. you shouldn't let just anyone in.

13.) sympathy is one of the worst forms of kindness. empathy is one of the best.

14.) a tongue has no bones but it can break a heart

15.) you're not supposed to be everything that everyone expects you to be. you're supposed to be yourself and that's supposed to be enough

i'm a poet that can't create beauty out of words,
a person that can no longer think.
i'm a writer that has lost all of her pens,
and a sturdy ship about to ******* sink.