She drinks to not hear the voices in her head, she drinks till that last drop is gone, till that last bottle is gone. All she can hear is the words of alcohol telling that more is better, she can only hear the words when they say more is better. She doesn't see that the more she takes the more she loses. She only drinks to end the conversations in her head. She used to be able to smile but now the alcohol has consumed her into thinking that only liquor and boozes will make her smile the way she used to. But in reality, she turns into this wreck that nobody wants to see. The thoughts use her mind as a playground and the demons use her brain as a way to mess with her and get her to do things nobody wants to do. She's always saying “this is my last drink” but you can't stop the addiction when it's an obsession and takes over your mind and every thought till you don't have control over it, till your not thinking your own thoughts and only thinking what the alcohol wants instead of what you actually  want...That's when your only hearing the words of alcohol.

I'm stuck in Arizona
I lie about being in love
with that Arizona sun
Take me down to Paradise City
In the warm California sun
Where the grass is green
Where they're out having fun
On the ocean in California
California summers never end
Wild beaches
In the salty wind
Malibu shines like summer gold
Hear that Rock and Roll
Turn up that radio
Yet, I'm stuck here in Arizona

People only care about you the moment they see you're not ok...Once they see how broken, miserable, depressed you are they try to help but the moment you say I'm fine they leave you in a heartbeat even tho you weren't fine in the first place. Why try to help someone, when all your gonna do, is leave them in the end...even when you know it's going to come back and haunt them again. Knowing their demons are going to reattach those chains but make them tighter than before, pull them back into the abyss but instead go further than last time, play with their mind to make them find a way to end the pain quicker than to find some help instead. You know it's going to happen so why leave them….sure you wanna help but if you're not going to stay don't help them telling them you'll be there for them and then just leave...Same goes towards significant others, once you find that flaw, get tired of them, or even the best one told, find someone better you leave them as soon as possible… You said you would never leave, always love them, never break their heart, never use them, but you broke every single promise that you made to them…. For what… an “upgrade” someone less clingy, less broken, funnier, more of everything they’re not? What's the point of making the promises if you were just gonna break them and leave? There was no point, now I'm here crying for you even tho you treated me like ****...but I guess I called that love, didn't I? My arms are open waiting, getting tired and sore for keeping them up this long just for you...so you can come back and hold me and say sorry for hurting you...but you know what….you can't mend a broken heart with broken pieces… You can't dry these tears when you're the one who made them,  but I know for sure you can't love someone when you left them for another one.

I take you like a drug the way you taste on my tongue I can already feel the addiction starting. How you hold me, touch me, look at me... I can feel how blind I'll be after being with you. Then you make me feel these emotions I've never felt and then you put me on this rollercoaster of emotions. Up and down up and down till you stop it all. Now I can't get rid of my addiction of you, I can still feel your touch at night, your lips on mine, your eyes the way they would look at me still hurts till this day...you think I was in love with you but really I was only addicted to you. To your touch, your smile, your words, everything was an addiction with you, I couldn't stop wanting you more and more each day...I want to forget you but you can't get rid of an addiction so quickly can you? You’re my drug and only rehab can fix my addiction of you...sadly I haven't found the right rehab yet to get you out of my thoughts