I always thought
Till death
we will never part

I guess
The day we broke up
Is the day
I died on the inside

From the first time I saw you
The earth stopped spinning
Gravity seized to work
My heart skipped several hearts with every step you took
The sound of your voice muted everything around me
A glance in my direction was enough to paralyze me
I felt like a child that had seen the stars for the first time
I fell for you even before I knew your name

But .. I fell alone .
Now you are a scar on my shattered heart
A reminder of the day I made my first mistake
The one mistake that will always remind me that you had a special place in my heart
A reminder that the special place in my heart was just a lay by on your Life long trip

I fell for you
But I fell right through you

I avoid you everywhere I go
I see you on other people’s faces, reminding me that you're tattooed to my heart
Trying to touch my soul and take the few things that make me happy away
You present yourself at the bottom rim of every bottle
And to run away from you, I get another before I get to the bottom
Like a natural disaster, you whirl your way into my vision
Every thought I think
Every touch I feel
Every chemical I taste
I try to forget you
But you creep into my every emotion
Disrupting my every action
Spoiling my fun
In fact, spoiling everyone’s fun
You demand attention
Like you need me to survive, to thrive
So you explore my dreams, looking for a ways to manifest yourself
You want to leave me feeling drenched in loneliness
But I refuse! I will fight you with my last smile
I will stand strong
I will find a way to diminish you
To take you out of my soul
Out of the souls of the people I love
I will not stop even when you beg for mercy
The mercy that you didn’t show me when you scarred me with pain
You will feel the pain I felt
When I saw others feeling joy
The pain you left me feeling when you extracted every piece of my heart from inside my chest .
You will not make me feel ...
feel like this again

"You're not good enough!"

That’s what she pronounced...
She left me with a thousand questions buzzing in my head
Am I not worth her love?
Is my love too unscrupulous for her?
Am I not the one after her heart?
Do I not complement her?
Maybe I am just that stepping stone...
Or a rock in her journey to love
But still, she picks me up
Heightening my hopes,
While casting me aside.
Only to land in her way once more.

Maybe I am not worth such a gift that is you
My love is priceless- no charges or taxes
And maybe that’s the problem
My presence by your side drags your energy to the ground
Maybe I am too small to complete your stairway.
So please,
Next time you happen pick me up,
Dispel of me,
That way I will not be a hindrance in your way
Perhaps I will be good enough for someone else,
I will never really know until I'm picked up again,
By someone else...

You hang them on the walls
The walls you put up to block people out
An endless number of entries and you still adding names
You like to show them off and shine them
Each having a different story
Almost like you a story writer and they just characters in your life long story
But I won’t be another number
Another statistic on your rep sheet
You will not add my name to your book
I will not allow myself to be placed on your wall
Polished and displayed for your viewing pleasure
I will run , flee from your grasp
I am not looking back this time
I am running into the sunset and vanish into the horizon
So find another
Cause this specimen will not hang on your walls

one last chance is all I need
One last chance to hold your hand
To smell your hair as you rest your head on my chest
One last chance to have a conversation that’s goin nowhere
A chance to hear your voice calling out my name
One more opportunity to look into your eyes and see our future
All I want is a chance to say I love you
To run through the fields in the middle of nowhere
Sit under An isolated tree and enjoy the view .
One last chance to feel loved and human again

Would it be wrong if I fall for you
If I find myself constantly thinking of you
Always looking at my phone , waiting on you
Would it be wrong if I came and told you
That my thoughts are constantly revolving around you
If the only time I am at peace is when I think of you
The only time I smile is when I see you
That every waking moment of my day is filled with daydreams of you
You got me feeling like I am nothing without you
Like a drug I can't get enough of you
Like a bee to pollen , I am attracted to you
I am always looking forward to sleep cause that's were I see you
Dread waking and saying goodbye to you
My only crime is that I dreamt and believed
That I saw a future with no one but you
As I continuously look for a way to you
I always ask myself questions out of the blue Like
Would it be wrong
So wrong , unthinkably wrong
Unbearably wrong
Breathtakingly wrong
That I have fallen for you

Been walking in my own footsteps
Goin round and round in connecting little loops
I always find myself back where u began
I always find myself looking for the landmark that will help me find my way
A sign
A reason to change my direction
But you not there
You moved off my path
You left me to wonder aimlessly
I can't be enraged cause I pushed you away
I moved you from the path
Can't blame you
I blame me
I blame me for giving up
Now I find myself lost in my own ways
With no direction
With no hope
Just darkness and a recording of your voice

What if I have been searching
For the one being that completes me
What if I Waiting for the very beginning
With visions of cherishing it for the rest of my life  
What if I been Thinging of saying I do
With dreams of growing old together
Dreaming about all the adventures we come enjoy
The moments we will share as we grow old
Bringing us absolute joy
Planning the legacy we will leave behind
The wealth for our children to enjoy

What if I have been searching
For that I had and didn't appreciate
Could it be I have lost purpose in life without you
What If it was always you
And I stupidly let you go

I never fell out of love with you
I still can’t imagine a life without you
I just can’t stand a life knowing someone else is with you
A life knowing that someone else is happy with you
Knowing that the reason someone else is smiling is you

I never fell out of love with you
But I realized that I need to do what’s best for you
I let us end so that a future could blossom for you
A life filled with a little sorrow just for happiness to be abandoned for you

I Will forever love you
And if true love means sacrifice then I sacrifice it all for you

We may be a million miles apart but i feel like we holdin hands
We may not talk all the time but your voice is always ringing in my ears
We may not have many moments , but every single one we have i cherish
It might be a year since i last saw you in person , but i see you  every night wen i dream
I may not be next to you right now
But my soul is whereever you are